queenylow

2007-03-02T07:07:00.000-08:00

erm... dis few days bery funny lerhx.. go out 2 day den stay at home for 2 days den go out 2 days den stay at home for another 2 days. hahas..
hyar.. i finish reading 3 bk in 2 days.. hahas.. lol.. erm.. my first 3 bks in the yr.. maybe is after Os... hahas..

wen out wif ahpingg today.. frustrated siax.. hahas..
she cant decide on whichfone to buy.. arrrrggghhh...
it is torturous.. cos.. she ask me to gib he sum idea..
but accordig to my eq.. hw much idea can i gib her..
and my brain juice is limited.... lol
so i was lik faster faster faster..
cos we stay at fareast in lik for 2hrs.. jus to think which fone shld she buy.. lol
oka larhx.. maybe nt her fault..
is me hu lost de patient.. not in gd mood..
in the morning.. just cried bcos of one song and one particular person.. hais.

2007-02-23T20:24:00.000-08:00

ELAINE LOW.. seem like you are very interested in my life issit??? kip asking me to update..lol
hahahas
anyway... are you surprise to see your name... hahas

erm.. went back malaysia for 6days... since 16 of february...
diden expect much when i am goin back.. cos i noe dat i am not goin to get alot of hangbao.. and with the exchange rate here... what i get dere mus be divided into 2 or more dan 2.. hahas.. so when i get a $2 hangbao it is not realy nice.. hahas.. bcos it is just a few cents in singapore.. lol
okae larhx i am not that money face.. but seriously.. if you go back malaysia bai nian... will lugi alot lorhx.. ahahas
and being a filial daughter.. i gave all my hangbao to my mama except the one she gave me larhx.. hahas.. (and pls note dat dose money is for her.. not for her to be save into my bank okae..) guys.. mayb you all shld do this also.. hahas.. when you receive hangbao.. you also must think that your parent are also giving out money... lol
erm.. made good use of all the 7 pieces of clothes i bought.. lol...
ohyarhx.. i went to genting... nowaday genting is lik NO FUN..
i dun dare to sit onto dose rides.. and the weather dere arent cold anymore..
i even wear a shorts.. mini shorts.. a t-shirts.. a slipper and walk ard genting highland.. aiyoyo.. malaysia government... maybe you shld grow more trees up dere.. to make it cooler.. lol...

on the 22nd of feb.. i am back.. actually.. i am staying in malaysia for another 2 weeks derhx. too learn hw to make up.. lol.. u all must be thinking.. please larhx.. queenie.. so ugly lerhx.. make up also no use derhx right..
but since it is lik cheap and my uncle is like paying for all my expenses.. WHY NOT...
but due to some reason..
1st... i want to see him larhx.. hahas... miss him
2nd.. my mama miss me.. hahas.. she say she kinda of worried.. can you imagine she is still worried for her daughter who is in her age of 18.. lol..
3rd.. np reunion dinner.. erm... kinda of disappointed.. but neber mind.. happy enuff jus to see everyone faces... (mr ang is leaving soon.. so sad larhx..).. see lots of faces.. dat nebee come back for lik so long lerhx.. i tink dey are jus eyeing for mr ang hangbao only.. RIGHT.. lol...
4th.. my sister eyes horx.. wakao eyy.. swollen lik hell man..

maybe i am goin back.. after i noe where i am posted to.. lol.. dun miss me okae... hahas

okae.. 23rd of feb.. i went out wif him.. wakao. eyy.. it is lik finally larhx.. please.. but i feel kinda of awkard when i am in the k room.. hahas.. diden dare to look anywhere except the screen.. hahas.. when he lie dwn beside me.. (in a sleepin posture).. you noe hw awkward it is.. esp i in my mini skirts.. i dunno what to do.. except sit still and dun move larhx.. lol...
erm.but he is kinda of sweet..
but the most incredible thingy is.. he brought bak gua and was lik eating dere.. i cant stop laughing larhx.. and he say dat the only way to make him feel warm.. lol.. faint right.. hahas..
say a couple of duet song.. kinda of embarass.. cos my singing skill is like.. yeeyar.. lol...
and he sang alot alot alot alot of canto.. i acc him sang too.. cos he dun believe i noe hw to say canto.. lol..

after dat went to meet min.. lol.. MIN so sorry. make you wait for me for lik so damn long.. hahas.. i wanted to acc him to the mrt station marhx.. lol.. hahas..

okae.. i am sick now. my throat is feelin terrible.. terrible cough.. lol.. hope i can get well soon. and mkae it for k session wif min on monday.. lol..

2007-02-07T06:45:00.000-08:00

act... i duno what to blog lerhx..
cos nowadays is like working for lik 12 hrs everyday.. like hell..
flipping clothes all day.. and now i can close my eyes and turn the clothes lerhx larhx... and i also noe de shirt is straight..
lol
erm.. sumtym go out wif changminmin... to shop shop and shop..
musnt go out wif her. she realy make u turn into a fat pig siax...
hahas.. insist you to makan.. even wen u r full.. i am fat fat fat...
changminmin.. i am not as thin as you okae.. hahas

went to make fake nails.. cost me $30...
erm.. elaine.. rmbr where we get our.. erm. free shine buffer??
i wen there to make my fake nail...
minmin help me.. cos.. i had a bad taste.. lol

okae.. i wan go see xiaozhu...
i dun care... argghhh...

and i am goin malaysia soon..
yeah!!
finally!!
but it is lik 7.30am de bus..
so early right.. dead..
can i wake up???lol

2007-01-24T12:08:00.000-08:00

19ofjan 2.30am
i exoress my love to you.
i diden expect much.
cos i already know the ans.

190fjan 5.30pm
you rejected my love
to what i have expected
and i understand why. and i wil try to understand.
i use my 'craziness' to cover how sad i feel

20-21ofjan
i diden dare to look at any thing that wil related to you.
i know i cant forget you that fast.

22ofjan 12am
u sms me.
i am goin to go out with you the nxt day
you know how happy i am.
maybe you wil never know.
cos you will neber be me.

220fjan 11.30pm
ding dong ding dong
there go the 12am cinderella bell
you cancelled it..
you know how sad i am
but i understand.
i know you have your own reason.
i jus put smile.
to cover how i feel.

24ofjan 6pm
i saw you.
my heart just light up like this.
like never before
but we seem like a pair of stranger.
just smiling at each other
and without saying anything.
we part away
really sad
really sad

25ofjan 2am
i wanted to sleep
i really wanted to
but whenever i close my damn eyes.
your stupid face just appear.
i knew i really miss you

25ofjan 3am
i cried.
really badly
it has been a long tym since i have last cried.
i once again pick up my chinese diary and start writing.
i dunno what to do.
i dunno what shld be on my mind.
if i have a choice.
can you dun come into my life.

do you know that
your entrance into my life is not being approve.
i really mean it.
i really do.
why must you do this to me??

i need some support. but who can i find this from

darrlingg... get well soon... ... ... ...
francis... i am really sorry... ... ... ...

2007-01-20T04:04:00.000-08:00

the first time, i wanted to cook for a guy
the first time, i am willing to sacrifice my time just to be able to see him for less than 2 mins
the first time, i walk around the shopping mall alone to look for your gift
the first time, i really settle down to think what i should do to make you happy
the first time, i express my love
the first time.... ....
the first time... ....
the first time... ...

and because of all the first time.. i cant get you out of my mind this fast..
everyday i long to see you..
but i know it isn't possible.

now we are just friends. that i dont love to be.
but i cant do anything...
i know you have just forget about the past.
i know you need time to adjust
i know i know.
i know.. but i just cant accept it

now.. i can only look at your photo. and let my tears flow in the middle of the night
hoping someday i can just forget about you. and accept the truth.

2007-01-15T20:42:00.000-08:00

after about ten long days.. i am coming back to blog again..
the past few days is like shopping shopping and shoping...

11 of jan
basically wen shopping.. bought clothes.. went to paya lebar and bugis..
act want to meet mr limJUNRONG at bugis derhx.. but sumthing happen.. so cant meet lerhx..
paiseh lorhx.

12 of jan
went for imterview.. early in the morning you know.. so damn tired.. wen we alight.. it is lik raining heavily.. and we diden bring any umbrella... act wan to run in the rain derhx.. buy qian jin xiao jie tanWANPING say dun wan.. so we waited for anotheer bus and let it make one turn to stop right in fornt of the factory..
den wen to marina sqaure... act want to buy jeans derhx.. but dun ve lerhx.. so suanx lerhx.
BUT I BOUGHT HIS PRESENT... wahahahas.. okae..i sound lik a bian tai nw. hahas...
i bought a jacket that worth $89 for this stupid piggie tortoise... and plus other gift i tink ia like $100+++ lerhx.. wah. heart pain.. hahas. no larhx.. i dun even feel anything.. die lerhx.. i spend mmoney lik nth happen siax..
den wen to watch movie wif xinyi and zhenyu.. watch last dance.. woohooo.. wu zhen yu handsome handsome.. hahas... but i dun get wad the show is tryin to say...hahasss

13 of jan
i cooked.. for him and carol..
steamed fish.. dunno wad pork and cabbage..
ahahas.. my first tym trying to cook all dis dishes...
and they say it is damn nice.. hahas.. so shiock to hear datt..
maybe i am born to cook.. dun you all tink so.. hahaas..
i sound stupid horx.. hehes...

14 of jan
wen shoping wif mama and meimei.. nth much.. diden bought anything. foul mood..

15 of jan
wake up early in the morning... to cook for him and carol again.. sweet and spicy prawns (for him).. mai you chicken...vegetables... and one pot of soup (fopr carol)...
BUT HE DIDEN EATT... AAARRRGGGHHHH.. suan lerhx. at least carol got eat.. hahas..
wen to cut my haira dn highlight my hair.. actually want to cut only.. but de hairdresser say want to give a tryy.. den i say okae lorhx.. i let hiim choose de color.. and it turn out to be RED.. imagine you highlighting red colour.. one word.. LIAN... hahas.. reaally lian lorhx..
aniwa.. i caused $100+++ to had my hair done.. hahas.
den wen to sing k.. at kbox.. was so high in the first place..(MY MOOD I N THE 1000FLOOR NOW) sing sing sing lik nobody business.. my singing skil relly sucks. in fornt of tanWANPING singing horx.. like so malu larhx.. hais.. hw come hurx?? den i recieve a call and say dey nt cuming lerhx.. so sad u noe... den (MY MOOD DROP TO THE BASMENT 1000) which is like a different of 2000 floor larhx.. hais.. but i manage to get my mood back after eating the prawn cracker.. hahaas....nice..

16th of jan
MY SISTER LILY BIRTHDAY... HAPPY BIRTHDAY..
MY DEAR MEIMEI...
MAY ALL YOUR WISHES AND DREAMS COME TRUE...
HOPE YOU MAY SCORE WELL FOR O
I KNOW YOU AHD BEEN WORKING HARD THIS FEW DAYS
SO CONTINUE WORKING HARD OKAE....
SHENG RI KUAI LERHX...
MY GIFT FOR YOU THIS YEAR BERY NICE HORX..
HEHES.... HOPE YOU LIKE IT

ps.. dun tell mama abt wad i blog horx.. =p

2007-01-07T07:32:00.000-08:00

why do guys always ask gers whether dey still rmbr him after dey break up for like 6 mths??!!
why do guys always want to prove that they are always better and stronger than the gers??!!

hais forget abt it... ...
okae. this few days is like so free..
and i tink if this is goin to last any longer
i will become fatter.
ohgosh...
i wanto work.. who is going to employ me lerhx??
anyone...
uncle sherman ask me go clean his hse for lik $1000 per mth..
i tink too little lerhx right..
like bo hua. hahas

went to wanpingg hse dis few days.. sing larhx...
i tink i shld stop singing..
but ge sheng can kil ppl...
hahas
but i wil continue to tak pic.. hahas

yesh??!! can i help you??

sticky stick stick.. saw our tongue???

don't u tink wanpingg look so idiotic in this pic??!!

did i did anything wrong again??!!

ger fren is still de best...

compare and contrast de face.. so diff.. arrrgghh... i so FAT!!!

2007-01-04T05:07:00.000-08:00

3rd of jan...
went to my interview... okae... dey wanted me.. but the problem lie on me noww. hahas.
they will send me for grooming lesson.. all free. but.. but.. i got to... i got to.. pay for my own cosmetic set.. which is lik $200-$250... expensive horx.. and i need to won a pair of 3inches high heel shoes..
queenylow.. with 3inches high heel shoes.. ohgosh larhx...i tink i will be 180cm lerhx barhx. hahas.... i 170cm.. already no ppl wan me lerhx. if i wear dat pair of high heel hurx. i tink i nid to fly to dos ahhmoh country to find a boyfriend lerhx larhx.... sobbsobb....
den went for jobhunt... at taka, tangs and kinokuniya... but all dun wan me.. ahahas. nt dun wan me larhx. isnno vacancy....hahas
so went home...was like so tired... but the bus is like so damn sucky... jus cant get to sleep in the bus.. aaarrrgggghhhh

4th of jan...
went to wing tai for job.. and once again.. we went home dissppointed... went to ahpingg hose to sing sing sing.. my singing is like from bad to worse. hais. so sad. hahas.at wanpingg hse, we took sum pic.. let u see okar. hahas.

stupid us... ugly side of us lerhx...

my tongue long marhx.. hahas. i bet soo.....

heyhey.. finally a normal us.. nice barhxx...kaypuii...

2007-01-02T09:22:00.000-08:00

31st of jan.
last day of work lerhx. finally. last day!!! i survive until de last day of work.hahas,. i will miss all de ppl dere. hahas

kiss me promoter. cute horx.

faezah... crazy ger... like to make paper bag....

maybelline and loreal promoter. she bery talkative siax.

faiszah... a nice ger to share my problem with.

sharifah.. a crazy ger who like to laugh laugh and laugh.

carol aunty... i love her.. hahas. she is one friendly one. but she alwas bully me. so sad. hahas.

1st of jan

new year countdwn... once again at marina square. hahas. gt firework marhx.hehes.

den sumthing happen. so stayed at yoshi and saw ahben sweeping and mopping.
wahpiang ehhh....
he gt jie pi siax. mop so many tym siax. lik ger. hahas. and seeing him mop the floor made me so paiseh larhx. cos i erm.. dunno hw to use a broom. hahas. made me so paiseh. so i see hw he use it. stare at him like a freak siax. hope he diden nootice.

erm. den i master de skill lerhx. hahas. arrange sum of the chairs and tables for dem. and chatted wif him for awhile and off we went. HOME. hahas. it was ard 5am whenn i reach hm. hahas.

den realise dat dey wen back the shop to sleep. cos no taxi. poor thingy. aiyoyoyo. so xin tong siax. dey work whole day den dey still cant go hm slp. stil have to slp in de shop on the table. hais.

chatted wif carol on de fone. cos she cant slp larhx.cchat and chat until abt 6.45... when we chat. i heard ahben singing. "ge sen" singing lerhx. so honoured siax. kaypui. hahas.act i also dunno wad he singing.. jus sound sum lost ghost dwn dere humming. when he fall asleep. HE SNORED. carol let me listen. hahas. so funny.aiyar. he too tired lerhx larhx. pity him siax. poor jie mei. hahas.

2nd of jan.
went to hand in the stupid for. me and ahpingg made our trip dwn marina sq. den we shop dere. makan dere. i was lik eating damnn slow. 1hr siax. hahas. cos nth to do marhx. when we shop.. i laid my eyes on one shirt. frm topshop derhx. hahas. NICE NICE NICE. but i have to get my pay first lahx. hahas. sadden..

den wen hm ard 3.30pm. sat on the bus and sang sum song. hahas. i wan to go sing larhx. i wan. sing sing sing. reach hm ard 5pm. den bath and prepare to go out again. hahas. to mit carol and ahben. hahas. act, onnnly mit carol only. but dunno y he appear out of a sudden. hahas. and he is late. so late,. made me wait for 45mins. hhahas. den we go suntec makan mac. hahas. shop ard and wen hm. hahas. and here i am blogging.

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2006-12-26T08:01:00.000-08:00

diden know why. out of a sudden. i tink i shld really grow up. i know this sound strange. QUEENIE LOW SHU MEI SAY SHE IS TRYING TO GROW UP. SERIOUS BORHX. yarhx. at first i am nt really convince too. but when i recall back on the things i do this 17 yrs. i had never ever serious use my heart and treat the one ard me. i felt kinda of nei jiu. hahas.

today go work. den my behaviour abit weird weird derhx. even ahpingg sense it.hahas. is nt bcos i m sick or wad. it is bcos. i am really tryin to change.serious. i hope a brand new me can survive for long before i change back to my normal self. hahhaas. wish me luck okae.

ohyar. today i at work bery bery guai lerhx. i help to sweep de floor. hahas. voluntarily. dunno y. hhahas.i am crazy lerhx. hahas.

5 more days to new year countdwn. so excited. arent u all?? hehes

2006-12-25T04:57:00.000-08:00

let see. 20th of december. where i went... hmm ohyeah. dat day i am off. yesh baby. dats is my off day. off lerhx.

but i stil make my way dwn to marina sq. my darrlingg faizs wanted to ve lunch wif me. see i am so popular. hahas. so went dwn dere at 2pm. waited for dem to finish deir work and we go for meal. have a nice chat wif dem. den acc another grp of ppl to ve deir break. hahas. too bored siax. dun expect me to stay dere forlik 4++ hr jus to wait for my darrlingg larhx. hahas. i am nt dat good. oOps. =x

den zhun zhun at 6pm. we set off to our npcc campfire. hiphip hurray. so happy. on de way dere we took sum foto. hahas. but only sum turn up to be nice larhx. so i wll post up de nice one latta.

wen we reach sch right. we ve to climb over de gate to like get into de sch. so bad horhx. lik we goin to steal anythingf frm de sch lik dat. hahas.campfire turn out to be a dissapointment. diden enjoy it dat much. de junior tink dat we have virus or sumthing. dun wan to play wif us. so sad.hahas.

ohyar. dis day i get to knew a guy call ben. frm yoshi. hahas. nice fren to chat wif. hahas. den bcos of ben i knew carol. hahas. funny ger.
"CAROL I MENTION UR NAME LERHX. HAPPY MARHX."
hahas. okae. yoshi fren are nice to hang out wif.

ohyar. x'mas countdwn. wen to watch night at the museum. hahas. funy show. wanpingg is laughing so loud. serious bery bery loud. hahas. luckily no one noe us dere. hahas. okae. den wen to esplanade. ve a nice chat wif ahpingg. hahas. den met up wif ben carol and deir fren i forget most of deir name. i tink is daniel xinyi xiaopang and dunno wad.hahas. reach hm at 5am. so tired. and sleep and sleep until my carol aunty sms me. hahas. but after dat wen back to slp until 4. i pig horx. i agree. hehes.

MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE. HOPE I CAN MEET UP YOU ALL DURING NEW YEAR COUNTDOWN. I WIL BE AT ESPLANADE. SEE YOU DERE. MUACKS. LOVEYOU GUYS.

me me me...

poor darrlingg wif her face cut into half.

arent we cute. hahas. kapui. kapui. dun vomit horx.

2006-12-12T07:24:00.000-08:00

today off. off. off. hahahas. so early in the morning wake up and iron clothes and do abit housework. hahahas. so guai right. muahha. den went to buy breakfast for ahmei. i so good horx. i tink is bcos today the mood is so damn high. dun nid work marhx. hahhaas.

then wwent to watch wei xiao pasta. frm the starting i cry until the last minute. ohgosh. my eyes is lik so damn puffy. and my eyes swoolen again. so paiseh siax. dont dare go out. wait for my eyes to turn back to my normal size. so wen out the hse late. hahahs. cant get my erm. present. ahhaas.

went taka. wanted to gib raymond elvis and si hou zhi a surprise. but regretted it larhx. shld have asked dem first. cos only sihouzhi is dere. haiz. wated my trip dere. hahas. no larhx. at least i saw one of my long lost fren. hahahas.

actually wanted to go visit jeanette derhx. but me. dunno is too many ppl call me stupid or wad. i dunno de way to paragon siax. haixx. so stupid. so i make my way straight dwn to erm... oh. marina sq. pick pingg. hahas. waited for 1 1/2 hrs. hahas. chatted wif the stuffs dere. hahas. later went to yoshinoya to makan. i order the fried fish dere. hahas. nice nice nice. better dan the yoshi i first tried. hahas. atleast i like the rice larhx. hahas.

the stay dere and chatted wif faezah. cos she want to wait for his boyfren who work until 10pm. so we acc her until 9. den ahpingg wan to go watch d aeroplane show. so we left. hahas.

ohyar. good luck to all nt and na students on the 18th. hahas. n level. mus be so ga chiong right. hehes. dun worry. u al will pass wif flyng color.

2006-12-06T07:46:00.000-08:00

shall blog by popular demand.
eyyy. no larhx. hahhas. shall blog by minority demand. hahahas

dis few was lik working. working and working. wrapping, wrapping and wrapping. so tired and boring
first day of work is thee worst thing of all. my leg jus cant tahan it by standing for 8 hrs. and my shoes damn small. hais. big foot queenie cant find any shoes dat fit her. so ve to bear wif small shoes. so in the end she suffer. hahahas.
after dat slowly use to it lerhx.
hais. tmr working alone. ah pingg off. actually she wan to go fetch me frm work derhx. but she horx. LIAR larhx. bluff my feeling. dun wan to cum lerhx. hais. hais. hais. poor me. kanna cheated by ahpingg.

erm. ohyar. i working at marina square watson. do come down if u want to buy christmas gift. ur gift wil be wrap personally by QUEENIE LOW SHU MEI or TAN AH PING. hahahas
remember to visit us kae.

ohyar. prom foto is nt up yet. cos the ahxiong haben upload de pic and send me. hais. so wait patiently. nw i shall upload sum pic dat i use my fone to tak derhx. only me and ping niax. hahas.

dat's me.

dat's me and ahping

dat's what i won. one of the lucky draw winner. thankx ZHENYU

dat's pingg and my shoes.

2006-11-23T06:31:00.000-08:00

went to northpoint macdonald to take our prom ticket.

the ticket. the prom

after that we went to tanjong pajar to international plaza. went to reconfirm our job. but when we reach there. errrrmmm. we dun dare to go in. because we were like unproperly dress. hahahas.actually we dunno we are goin to go for the interview. so dat why we are so unproperly dress.

that hw i dreesss. so improper right. hais

she wore her !19 tee and a short. unproper also.

so we went to suntec. wanted to buy some clothes to dress ouurselves up. but we cant find any. so decided to go tmr. hahas. went to shop at suntec. feel reeally odd. cos i dress like i am goin to the beach and i am shopping at suntec. hahas. but who cares larhx. erm. i bought my bag lerhx. hurray. but my mum and sis say not nice. hais. dead.

after dat we went to cuaseway to eat. okae maybe we are crazy. went all the way to causeway to eat. hahas. but we like it marhx. we ate pasta at pastamania

she eating her delicious pasta. its is chicken bolognese

mine is beef bolognese

ohyar. something happen. it happen when pinggg was ordering the food. the guys working for pastamania was like asking pinggs wad kinda of pasta she want. either is pingss ears gt prob or the guy speak alien language. pinggs cant really understand wad he is talking. so d=funny dwn dere. the guys was like

'please choose one kinda of pasta'
'please choose one kinda of pasta'
'please choose one kinda of pasta'
'please choose one kinda of pasta'

repeat so many tym larhx. so i went up to help. hahahas.

and my conclusion of why this incidence happen is that pinggs ear got serious problem. cos if i can understand den why cant pinggs understand right. hahahas.

after dat went to find her accessories. but we cnt find any. pingg saw one dat she lik but she need to ask her sister. so we went hm empty-hnaded again. at the bus stop while waiting for the bus we took some pictures.

OUR SEXY LEGGIE

she acting cute

trying to ignore her hahahahas

i tink she is trying to gain my sympathy. hahahas

some of our pictures

2006-11-22T07:45:00.000-08:00

22/ nov 2006

went oout wif pingg today. ohgosh she is not late.hahas. first tym. muahahas. went to northpoint foodcourt to have our breakfast cum lunch. act. i diden tak anything larhx. act wanted to share de cai tou kuai (carrot cake) but too hot for me (habing sore throat... i am nt a weakling that cant take spicy food) so she ate almost the whole plate and we sat off for vivo.

a long journey there.there was this 2 guys standing next to us. they look lik poly student and theri conversation is like so damn childish larhx. cant stand them siax. so take out my handphone and listen to songs.hahahas.

i tink i wun be going to step into vivo for a long time. cos cant really find sumthing that reallysuit me. either it is too expensive or it doesn't suit my age. haiz.

next stop i went to far east. finally something that suuit me and pingg. hahas. so went to shop for all prom accessories. hard time. cos pingg cant make up her mind on what she want to buy. she gt such a limited budget. we shop and shop and shop. finally when she make up her mind and we went back to the shop to buy it. it is gone. arrrghhh. so again we went to another shop for her accessories. but she want to consider first. so we went to take our early dinner at 5pm.
when we went back for the piece. it is gone. arrrghhh. cant stand pingg.
(each of us bought a nail polish and a ring)

left far east to heeren to shop for my bags. bt no suitable one. so went to cineleisure. found one white one. it lok kinda of common. and cost $27.90. nut i want to open myself to more option. so went to shop ard again. left cineleisure and head dwn for takashimaya.

walk for awhile and pingg leg pain ( i tink her shoe made her skin peel off) so we went to bread talk de little shop there to drink somthing. and let her little poorr leg to rest for awhile. order green tea frappe and mocha. (cost me $10.00) act wanted to drink that mocha. but my throat is so damn pain dat i cant really swallow. hahas. so change with pingg. hahas.

the cup of mocha

she trying to rest her feet and smsing with the kawaii sarah

went to shop again after awhile. didn't found anything. but found this nice looking handbag. red colour leather. it look so damn nice. but it cost $40.00. kinda of expensive for me. haix. and i scare the careless me will spoil the handbag easily. hais. so went home without buying anything. so disheartening, hahhas.

in the mrt (as always) we took some photo again. hahas.

that how we dress today. hahas.

normalus... nth special right....

us acting cute. hahas. but only wanpingg hu is the cute one. hahas

snapshot by me when she is smsing. muahahahas

okae. i shall end my post today.

2006-11-21T08:32:00.000-08:00

21/nov 2006

went to mit pingg at 1pm. and expectedly she is late again. and her stupid reason is she is watching tv. arrrrgggghhh.feel like gibing her a punch right at the middle of her face siax. hahas.

went to hunt for contact lenses. hahahs the first shop we went to is so unfriendly.he don't wwant to sell to us larhx. and his attitde also suck man. second shop. young man. so better attitude. actually wanted to buy derhx. but we want to compare the price first.so we went to de forth the fifith. den we left chongpang. ahhas. paiseh lorhx

den off we went to northpoint. the ppl at noorthpoint attitude really gt problem siax. so sad. hahahas. so we went to sunplaza to search for it. and finally we came to this shop where this uncle attitude is really very good. hahas. although his shop is a bit old. and is like more expensive by $2. but i still prefer him. hahas. $2 is worth for the good attitude.

so me and pingg bought contact lenses. at $30. brown color contact. hahas
learn how to put on the contact lenses and take off. and wash it.
wanpingg had a hard tym putting it on and taking it off.
i was wondering is it really dat difficult. cos it take less than a min to put it on and take it off.hahahas
but i have came to a conclusion is that people with bigger eyes made it easier to put on the contect lenses.hahas.
(people with samll eyes. no offence. muahahahas)

okae. that all. wait for tomorrow post. =)

2006-11-20T00:07:00.000-08:00

17 of nov.
finally i have finish my last paper. dat means i have finish my Os. wooohooo. so damn cool larhx. so excited. but the last papaer really kinda of freak me out alittle bit larhx. hahahas.
after my first paper. went out with minmin and elaine to cityhall. actually serene and xiner is suppose to join us derhx. but dey pang seh us.hahahas. shooping at city hall is a little too tiring. cos woke up too early today.hahahas. diden bought anything. cos the meal is already $6 each.hahahs
it is mine, elaine and minmin virgin try at carl's junior. hahahas. we had a hard tym there. struggling what to pick as our first try larhx. hahahas. but the meal is really worth it larhx. hahahas. the burger is fresh. i mean those tomato and onion all dat larhx. damn fresh siax. hahahas.
there is an exhibition derhx. selling malaysia houses. we are so engrossed in it. cos the model is so damn nice larhx. hahahas. i wanted one of this houses. ohgosh.hahahas.
wen hm wif elaine and her sis. dey are my bodyguard siax.hahahas. dey send me hm. first tym. cos i tink normally i shld be de one protecting ppl barhx.hahahasbut it was a nice try.hahahas.

18 of nov
DINT went out for the first tym. and we went to CHINATOWN. cool barhx.hahahas. went there to bought ll those stuff for making accessories.hahahas. almost went broke there. everything cost me $22 plus larhx. hahahas.
ate char sew rice. while we ate half way we wen away to buy tian ping. the cleaning auntie nearly clean our table siax. luckily our witty serene save our dinner.hahahas. and she gt to endure the pain of being lecture by the cleaning auntie.ahahahas. poor serene.
serene and us part at chinatown mrt staion. she went to vivo while min and me made our way to bugis. met jeremy dere. he joined us. and we went to bras besar. all sell books derhx. and the place is so damn hot.hahas.
went to icon after dat.bought nth. cos i am broke.hahahas.saw my sister and i went to join her and ahxiong.hahahas
went hm shortly. was damn tired.hahahas

19 of nov
went to VIVO wif my meimei. was go round and round the whole vivo.hahas. was so damn tired. spend one plus hour just to finish one storey niax. goin crazy siax. nth caught my interest. so again bought nth. hahahas. but the toy r us is so damn fun and we took sum pictures.

i am about to get off. voom voom voom.

arent i smart. muakakakas.

muacks. muacks. muacks.

we are goin crazy siax. hahahas

BACK TO NORMAL AGAIN

2006-10-22T14:29:00.000-07:00

5.30 am in the morning.
finally what i wanted to do have finish. but can't be saved in the stupid diskette.
arrrghhh. idiotic.
neber mind shall send her tmr.
nw nid to go do the card lerhx.
i tink i dun nid slp lerhx. hahas
sick. temperature quite high lerhx. arrrghh
lata goin out wif pingg to celebrate her b'day
yeah.hahas.
lalalalalas.
but first i mus settle my stomach first. so hungry.

anyway. DARRLINGG HAPPY BIRTHDAY.. SWEET SIXTEEN...

2006-10-17T08:05:00.000-07:00

wow. everyone is typing their thought for their friends in their little entries. maybe i shall start mine too. hahas. i noe it is like abit too late. but i still wanted to do so. hahas.

let me see. first let start with skymessx barhx
sihui: lao da.hahas. hey buddy. thankx for everything. you seem to be the one always comforting me. and you are always encouraging e to study.hahas. work hard too lao da. "SI HUI DANG" gt trouble call me kae.hahas
kathy: jiajia arhx. you always look so damn gong and sleepy in class derhx. i mean when the teacher is nt teaching larhx.hahas. is it bcos you work too hard the night before tha cost you to be so tired.hahas.
yuting: wah. known you for like more than 6 yrs lerhx barhx. so long horx.you are one that i look up to. but dunno when i can be like you siax. pretty and clever.
minmin: wah. i seldom talk to you derhx worhx. right. ahahas. you are always dere playing with your handphone or reading your story book. diden dare to interupt you.hahahas. but like yuting i have also known you for a long long time lerhx.hahas.
elaine: milkmilk?? moomoo?? hahas. this is sumthing i ve heard fr others abt you.hahas. but to me you are a scardy cat.hahas. always scare by me. fun barhx. muahahas. aniwa. u smile can really melt one heart siax. mayb nt for other but for me.hahas.
serene: among your grp. i ve known you the longest barhx. rmbr the tym at blk 2**. hahas. and after sch. we always hang out together to play. and there is one tym wen 2 of our family wen to muar to ur relative hse. and we bath together. muahahas. it was really a great tym.
shinni: i was so touch when i open the floopy dics you gave me. the message wa so sweet. it was lagi sweet when i know that you type it in the middle of the night. thanks alot.hehes. all the best.
xiner: wao. to me you always have your bery own style.hahas. so organise.hahas. ohyar. you are also a crying baby man. you are so much worst dan me.muagagas. maybe bext ty we can compete in crying.hahas.

next.
siaowei:hahas. thankx for helping me in my work . really appreciate it bery much. aniway stop saying ur life bery hui lerhx larhx. make my day so hui also.hahas. us learn to be happy and dun tink too much lerhx. you always ve ur frn ard you.
jeanette:thankx for all the funny joke (alto it is nt really that funny larhx).hahas. but sum of ur movement is so damn cute.hahas. yoyu always cum up with su stupid idea that make the class so hyper derhx.hahas. thank lorhx.
watson: hey fren. dun always dun cum to sch larhx. next tym go jc/poly rmbr dun pon sch lerhx horx. always pon school. aiyoyo.dunno wad u do at hm siax. hahas. work hard okae.
junrong: what i want to say is sorry. i tink i ve make you into a difficult spot last tym wen i use to sms you.hahas. seriously i diden tink too much that tym (too bored so just sms sum of my fren and you are one of dem, but you are the only one that i ve cause trouble to. so sorry). jus treating u as a good fren. but duuno why the rumour spread saying i'm interested in you. hahas. erm. so sorry.hahas. hope you dun mind. anywa. all the best.
zhenyu: didi.thankx for being so lame.hahas. you add color to my life siax.hahas. thankx lorhx. aniwa. dun be so dao next tym.
nana: thankx you so much for bullying me all the tym. always so blur when you said sumthin that i dun understand. dunno why horx. is it i too stupid or you are saying alien languagehurx.hahas.
lizzie: omg. you are the best buddy i ever ve. alto i dun go out wif you dat often. but u are always on my mind. you are really a great great fren you know. we seem to be always comforrting each other for dunno what reason.hahas. dun u tink so? hahas.
ruohan: alto we know each other for a long tym lerhx but i still wan to ask why are you always so damn weird. when i wave to you den u treat it as you diden see me. when i diden wave to you den you say i am dao. duno hw to deal with you. you know. hard ty for me. but it is a great pleasure to know you.

LAST BUT NOT LEAST:
TANWANPING:
darrlingg. darrlingg. oh my dear. alto among my whole list of fren here. you are abt the last one i get to know. but my bond with you is so great. hahas. although you are not my soul mate ( you wil neber become one). but i tink in my life. you are more impt than that lerhx (maybe bcos in my life now,the soulmate haben appear barhx.hahas)erm. although i duno what you take me as. (cos you neber tell em any of ur secret before or share your trouble with me llike sum other fren did.) sometym i really doubt abt our frenship. hahas. but i am already glad that i am already in part of ur life.thankx
you are always dere for me. whenn i need you. although i seem to lik kip bullying you. but it was jus for fun only larhx. hope you dun mind. ohyar you teach me things that i neber really know. ( knowing you already teaches me sumthing.cos you are one unique one that i ve to cope with. hahas.) sumtym you guide me when i am lost. you help me up when i am down. i am so grateful. thankx
thankx for accompaning me doin the thing i wanted to. and enduring all my random and stupid acts or questions.hahas. erm.remember last tym when you ask me why we so different but we can still be so close. i answered bcos opposit attract. but when i go into a deeper tot.i somehow tink that is it really becos of that. i really duno. maybe i shld go and tink abt it after o.
although we have neber quarelled befoe. but i wanted to say. if we ever quarelled in the future.i hope that we wld forget it bery quickly. and you wun take tak the words i said to hard. cos wen one quarrel. you wil neber watch wad you say.hahaas.
hope that our relationship wil maintain this way. until the day i leave this world.hahas.

similarly to all fren. hope our frenship wil last as long as we want. =)
sorry to dose i diden mention. tagg me and i wil rewrite my post.

2006-10-14T09:47:00.000-07:00

GRADUATION... ...14'oct 2006 (let all the memories be kept deep down in my heart)

wow wow wow wow. can't believe i have been in cchy for like four years lerhx. it seem like i had just started school 1 yr ago. i can still rmbr how i get into cchy. and what is on my mind when i just stepped into cchy at the holding campus. the whole campus look so scary and i was like ohgosh am i realy secondary 1 kid lerhx. it cant be barhx. but guess what. i am in secondary FOUR lerhx.hahas

do you all remember the registration day. the queueing for all the books and school uniform. (seriously the school uniform scare me. omg. u need t button and buttoon the short everyday. tough job. but now it is like so damn simple.) we had to wait for so long larhx.hahas. stupid queue.hahas. and we are sharing campus with riverside. nice experience.hahas

ohyar. and girl do you all remember the shocking news of cchy girls hair need to be short. and we were like holy mother shit. shoulden have come into this school. we have been cheated. hahas. and finally at our final yeaar. we got to grow them. hahas. finall long hair for cchy girls. hahas.

there is sumthing. do you all still remember there is a news passing around saying that . it was like so shocking.hahas. we said we areall going to book a taxi there right.hahas. once again we have been cheated. no such thing cuming up.hahas.

and. and. and. rememeber how excited we were when we are about to shift to the new campus. hahas. all the words that the teachers said we are goin to get in the new school. we picture everything in our mind. and we form such a nice school in our little dream. but our dream had shattered into pieces when we first step into the school right.hahas. the "BIG" pond. those chair that will slide down in the hall ( although there is one. but we neber once sat on it before. wha for they have it siax. hahas) and we have been cheated again.hahas

although we have been cheated for many times. hahas. but we stil lurve the school right. hahas. all the memories we have in that school. please lock it somewhere in your heart. because. you wiill never know. when you are goin to step back into that school after you left.

and friends. i will surely miss you all so damn much. suddenly i realise how important you all are in my life. suddenly. dont have you all. really dunno what to do siax.hahas. how the crazy me going to survive siax. hahas. without friends. queenie low seem to be like dead.hahas.I CANT SURVIVE.hahas. okae larhx. even if i cant survive. i stil wanna wish all off you all the best.

thankx all the performers for today. although we were like not concentrating on your performances. but stil wanna say thankx.

and ohyar. how can i forget the teachers. to all the teachers in cchy. no matter you teach me before marhx. i still wanto thanks all of you. without you all. i also cant surive. so thankx lorhx.hahas. =)

LOVE YA PPL.. MUACKS...

2006-10-01T23:32:00.000-07:00

woohooo. tough week. prelim. finally chungchenghighyishun in habin prelim. wen al others sch have finish it lik 100yrs ago. hahas. er. inda of tough. cos i neber study marhx. hahas. erm.

all papers was kinda of tough okae. even the chinese paper too larhx. which is my only hope. and now it is gone. ohno. bad bad result cumin out. tmr last papar. chem paper 1. wish me good luck barhx. hahas.

sat i wen out wif darrlingg. bugis. WINDOW shopping. tto relieve stress larhx. hahas. nth much. cos that day bery tred so diden enjoy much. erm. but we took photo. erm. we are photo maniac kae. hahas. look at my webshots album den u noe lerhx. hahas.

sec 4 life. please end soon. arrrrghhh

2006-09-23T09:04:00.000-07:00

wen out wif mama today. and sumthingf happen on y way hm. so funny larhx. admit dat i am quite sad to hear wad happen. but after lik 1 min. i find it quite funny lerhx. hahas. anyway. let wad happen jus happen. it is deir mouth nt ours. we also cant stop de frm saying. the only way to revenge is to talk abt de also lorhx. hahas.

peace.

anyway bastard. maybe you ay wan to say out who you are nd next tym wen i see you i will avoid you. serious. i know you dun lik me. and the best way for you nt to further hate mme is to advoid yyou. hahas.

aiyoyo. this few days alot thingy happen lerhx. my sis and me.hahas. but wad to do. jus continue to survive lorhx. hahas. wad is done is done.hahas.

'o' level cuming soon. ppl work hard.=)

2006-09-14T09:08:00.000-07:00

somehow somewhat somthing is happening.

2006-09-04T08:22:00.000-07:00

TODAY WAS A LONG DAY.

0700-0700 woke up by my mama
0700-1030 lying on my bed DREAMING OF HIM
1030-1200 preparing DRESSING UP. weixiiong cam my hse.
1200-1230 on the way to mit DARRLINGG PINGG
1230-1245 on the way to SOMERSET
1245-1330 had my breakfast cum lunch @ KFC
1330-1340 buy movie tickets for 1430 MONSTER HOUSE
1340-1425 shop @ HEEREN
1425-1430 head back to CINELEISURE
1430-1600 MONSTER HOUSE
1600-1930 shopingg at FAREAST and TAKA
1930-2030 heading back to YISHUN
2030-2100 taking NEOS
2100-2130 HOME

2006-08-26T07:39:00.000-07:00

okae here to post again. nowaday nth much lerhx. seriously.

diden go out wif DARRLINGG for bery long lerhx. sianx. miss all her stupid act.hahas dun i sound like lesbian.hahas. okae i am not.

dis week practically jus prreparing for de teacher day dance performance. quite sianx. cos it is always de sam thingy.hahas. no choice had to do wif it. last yr lerhx. jus put up my best performance barhx.

ohyar. last tues gt oral. so sad. i tink i have done badly larhx. dat all. nth much.

went for a hair cut today. lok lik i have gone for another cancer treatment like dis. cos i lost quite a big amt of hair. seriously.hahas.

okae dis update is boring.hahas. no choice. cos my life is so boring nowaday. and my mood isnt rite dis few days. i tink i mood swing bery fats, becareful lorhx.hahas.

2006-08-06T04:05:00.000-07:00

4 of august 2006
it marked the day of our ending journey in NPCC
our ending journey as a cadet

4 years
4 years of training as a cadets.
these few years,
we TRAINED together
we WORKED together
we SWEAT together
we STINK together
we LAUGH together
we GO CRAZY together
we DO EVERYTHING together

friendship being build this 4 years
first, all re stranger, but as time passes
we all had become friends
although there are quarrel some time
but till the end
we still LOVE EACH OTHERS
we still TREASURE EACH OTHERS
and we will still BE THERE FOR EACH OTHERS

now, although we are no longer squadmate
but everything will be kept as memories
and these memories will be kept in my heart forever
never wil i going to forget them, even though i am far away from all of you
everyone of you, is like a prercious stone in my heart.
every moment spend with you all is like watching a million of stars hanging on my head.
so nice and so spectacular.
thankx for leaving such a great memories in my heart.

no matter where you are.
please remember this squad.
we always the sec 4 2006 npcc squad.
never will it going to change or will it goin to be destroyed.

people work hard for your 'o's and everything else
DARE TO DREAM
and DREAM TO DARE
you all will make it big one day.
believe in yourselves.

LOVE EVERYONE OF YOU. (:

2006-08-02T03:45:00.000-07:00

today we get our POP tee lerhx. it surely look nice.hahas.is MUCH MUCH MUCH MUCH MORE better than i can expected and MUCH MUCH MUCH MUCH MORE well printed. hahas. it was nice. we are goin to wear this shirt to the pop, which is lik this fri.SIANX. like nobody is goin larhx. i mean sir and mdm. all working. sigh. WHYWHYWHY. they train us up. we really wanto lik see them in their first activity where memories can be found from dem. anda another SIANX is bcos jeanne and joycelyn are goin to turn up late. so his mean that we are goin to face the 2 carppies for duno hw many hours.ARGGGHHH. unbearable.sigh.
then ddarrlingg cam my hse today.hahas. she is lik damn tired. me too larhx. we actually want to watch GUI YU. at my hse derhx.hahas. and we really did watch.. but it was lik damn boring at the front part. it drag so damn long to go into the main topic. the alley. so we were lik watching and watching and the we fell asleep wen the lixinje was abt to get into the gui yu. OHGOSH. too tired and the show too dragy made us fell asleep.hahas. slp until 5.45om den i go bath lettiong wp slp awhile more. which is until 6.15 larhx. she pig larhx.hahahas.my dad help us off the tb(found out wen we wake up).
den now i am here blogging. shld really concentarte on my study now.everyday i am lik telling myself larhx. but ahhas. no action is madde and i am lik sleeeping so early everyday.hahas. where gt tym to study.hahas.

WO FA XIAN WO BU AI DA LERHX.hahas. an lian 1 MTH. is dat consider long or short.hahas. i tink for me is consider long lerhx barhx.hahas.=)

2006-08-01T04:49:00.000-07:00

today went jiajia hse dance?? shld i say dance or practice the dance.hahas.anything larhx.
IS DAMN REAL TIRED. my stomnach is damn pain. too long neber exercise lerhx barhx.hahas.
today after sch neber go and mit darrlingg. go straightto the prata place wif skymessx.
had a plain ______. dunno wad is dat a bit suan suan derhx.bery nanchi. i neber finish it.den i also had a cheese prata i tink prata is still derhx best.hahahas.i lik original stuff.hahahas. and had a cup of teh terak. NICE.hahas.
nearly left my wallet at the prata place. me so gong siax.hahas.
den wen jiajia hse to wait for lang, zixian, kapo, min, elaine.hahahas.
we start dancing at ard 4.30. cos nid wait for dem to eat.
dance dance dance. act i sit dwn dere and correct ppl mistake.hahas.
cos dey later part den start to focus on de hiphop part.hahas.
dancing de hiphop part is abit diff n paiseh. cos dey ask me solo wif lang to shake our butt.
damn embarassing larhx. in front of whole school sum more.i tink i can go die lerhx barhx.hahahs.
wen home.my stomach is lik so cramp. PAIN.hahas.
i tink sum of the dance step du really suit de dance lorhx. NO OFFENCE.maybe i shld suggest it to xiner nxt wk. and me, elaine n min had decide nt to be part of the sway thingy.cos we look awkard dere. SERIOUS.ohgosh and we dun really dare to do the action in front of the whole school. xiner dun angry horx.hahas.
TIRED.i dun wan go sch tmr.i goin crazy lerhx.
MDM SUE LESSON IS TORTURING.MY MIND DUN EVEN DARE TO RELAX FOR 1 SECOND DURING HER CLASS.
but xiner enjoyit lerhx. cos she was so eager to go back to class for eng lesson ween the assembly kip dragging.i must say i really PEIFU xiner. OHGOSH SHE IS SUCH A PERFECTIONIST.wen can i be lik dat. maybe not in my whole life barhx.hahass,

okae this post is damn long. and sianx. RIGHT.hahas.

2006-07-28T09:01:00.000-07:00

the aquad met with andrew today. hahas. and we heard a bad new. NON of the CIs are able to make it for our POP. WHAT. dis is ridiculous. wad the. so all of us is lik we dun wan to go for POP lerhx.lol and we sugguested to mr ang that we want it on sat. BUT cant confirm until monday. and the CIs have gave sumthing to de squad. custom made keychain.hahas. nice derhx.woohoo.hahas
this is it.

2006-07-25T04:53:00.000-07:00

WHAT TO GET FOR THE TEACHERS??hahas.
teacheers day is near. and skymessx is dancing. hahas. yeah. wif some other guy partner. i also dunno whether i shld dance anot. cos i realize dat i seem quite extra. de only ger nt in skymessx.hahas. see forst barhx.if i can find a partner. but mos probably not.hahas.

eating medi.so mafan. allott of things also cannot eat. esp those i like de.
ALL CANNOT EAT. CARROT.EGG.CHICKEN.COLDRINKS.BEANS.FRUITS++ hahas.

must stay cheerful. my tag aall asked me to stay happy. so i shld be.
and i was shocked min2 asked me go find mdm sue. min2 u mus b crazy lerhx.
part of my stress due to her. u still asked me go visit her.aiyoyo.later i turn crazy.ahas.

2006-07-22T07:07:00.000-07:00

today. act wan to go facial. but den wen to see the senseh @ aljunied. found out sumthing. and i shan't say abt it. live life to the fullest is the best i can do now.lets smile and say i love the world everyday.YEAH.
i am chatting wif my darrlingg now while i was blogging.hahas.she seem extremely high. but here i am not really dat happy.hahas.duno why. i seem lost in my own world.lost for studies and everything.and i dun quite noe wad am i living for now. hahas. i doubt i will ever noe it even until i die.hahas.

wen my lfe cum to the end.will you noe i love you?? will you be by my side??i seriously doubt.today wen i wake upi suddenly wanted to tell you.but i lack of courage.amd i said b4 i will b ur guardain angel lerhz.so wad for if i say, right,sigh.

2006-07-18T14:22:00.000-07:00

nowaday pl seldom blog. i tink is busy wif deir studies barhx. sigh. i am still in de mood of living in my lalala land. not touching any bit of my book.sigh.how.ppl save me barhx. if i continue like dis i tink i will end up in the ite.is dat good for me?hais. i really dunno. wad to do. i just cant get de mood right. wad causes it siax. and i only can study in de late modnight. which is lik not god for health. and i will end up getting sick. hais. i mus saty strong. strong enuff to support me until my o level which is lik 100 days later. QUEENIE BUCK UP MAN. YOU HAVE TO WAKE UP NO MATTER WHAT. EVEN POKING YOURSELVES. hais. will this help.hahas. i doubt.hahas.

able to see you everyday is not enough. looking at you for 1hr is lik 1mins to me only. sigh. even if i look at you for the whole day it wil only be like 24mins.sigh. i dun lik dis feeling.darrlingg say i am living in de fantasy world.am i?shld i?can i?hais.i shall wake up frm dis lala land and forget abt you by telling myself dat HE IS JUST NOT INTO YOU.

2006-07-16T06:03:00.000-07:00

this is de front part. it wil be in the middle. nice barhx.hahas. mus thankx to serene orhx. she tot of it derhx.hahas. =)

this is de back view of the tee. the name must be fill up by your own.hahas. good idea barhx. cool barhx.hahas.but you all must write nicely lerhx.dun destroyed it okae. hahas. =)

2006-07-14T07:39:00.000-07:00

wen to watch pirate of the carribbean (de dead man chest today). super damn nice. nicest show i ever can remember larhx.hahas.
de animation cool.
de oralando bloom attractive,dauntless..
de CAPTAIN jack sparrow cute,witty, alot of stupid idea,funyy.
de eliazabeth gorgeous. but she get irritating at the end of the show.reallyw want to scold her bitch at dat point of tym.
de octupus disgusting,
de plot of the story exciting, saddening and stupid(cos it starting to be lik harry potter mus stay tune to de nxt episode which is lik 1- 2 yrs lata. irritated)
hahas. ppl. go catch this show. you wun regret it. if u do. den you doen't belong to this earth man.hahas. jkjk. hahas.

ohyar. de movie have alot of irritating part. that stun me. and my little heart nearly stop beatng. ohgosh. ppl if u watch dis show. pls expect the unexpecteed. cos it is really thriilling.. mayb u cld say dat i am timid. cos wanping lik no reaction derhx. i look so damn stupid beside her when i was watching dis show. she remain so damn calm man. i look dman stupid down dere.hahas.

in the cinema i was lik sitting in fornt of this ger who lik kip using his leg to bang on my chair larhx. i was lik shaking dere larhx. so damn irritating. wtach de show in an awkward siitng position. at. i did turn back to diao de ger. but she had no reaction. dat de most furious part. arrrghh. how can dis ger treat it as nth happen. stupid.irritated.

PIRATE OF THE CARRIBBEAN- THE DEAD MAN CHEST ROCKS.

2006-07-09T06:01:00.000-07:00

LIFE IS SUCH A MYSTERY.
you dunno what wil happen next.
neber get what you would lik.
maybe sometym you do get.
but if you really put in alot of hope in it.
when you dun get it.
it is a total dissappointment larhx.

hahas. CRAP.

PARENT HAD BEEN NAGGING
aren't all de parent doing so now to all dier sec 4 kds
ger/boy ah. o level cuming lerhx.
must study lerhx
cannot play lerhx.
dun play computer lerhx horx.
DEN IF YOU DUN LISTEN
they confistcated your modem.
argghh.
weirdo parent.
last tym i tink dey also lik us barhx
ask dem study dey dun want study
how can dey ask us to study.
lol

CRAP AGAIN.hahas

okae. this entry is dedicated to yuting.hope you stay cheerful. dun be so sad over sumthing okae. hahas. smile =)

2006-07-03T03:23:00.000-07:00

went out with darrlingg today to sunplaza. to study!! did study.2 question den i gave up on the 3rd question. cos too difficul lerhx. den help darrlingg to finish her hw.hahas. me good barhx. hahas. no larhx. me gibing her trouble only. kip saying de wrong ans. hahas. saw mervin in purple tee today. wheee. so kawaii. he look cute and nice in purple.hahas. after dat treat darrlingg hot fudge in mac.hahas. she saw marc which i dided hahas. den went home. at mac asked darrlingg alot of thingy. is da consider alot. okae larhx. at least she told me sumthing. hahas. okae barhx. nth much. I AM TROUBLED. I CRIED FOR YOU. OHGOSH.

2006-07-01T01:42:00.000-07:00

yesterday we had our last parade. our last training for the whole sec 4 squad. hahas. quite sad but also qute happy. SAD: omg. last parade. will miss np life so much. the joy we have spend together. the hardship we have spend together. ohgosh. now no more lerhx. realy no more lerhx. only memories. sometym i will look back at the photos we had taken in the past. ohgosh. really memories siax. the bery bery hrad training we get wen we are still a cadet. HAIS. HAPPY: cos i dunnid to see the JIANREN and YEOWSUI lerhx.ahahhas. muahahahas.

we were scolded for this photo by miss wong.
and andrew help us fight back by quarrelling with miss wong. ohgosh. hope everything will be fine. sorry for making so much noise. hais. BUT WE ARE HABING GREAT LOTS OF FUN. yippie. =)

afteer kanna scolded we went to the back of the school to take photo. so that we wun get scolded and also most importantly we wun disturb the other larhx.hahas. we habing great lots of fun dere. but this moment is bery short derhx. sigh.

2006-06-27T08:28:00.000-07:00

RUMOUR. =0
hahas. i lik _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ .hahas. impossible barhx. i treat him as a good friends niax. ppl dun need think dat much. when i get bored. i do sms him. but i do also sms others.hahas.dun tink anyhow. if i sms sumone too often and dat means i feel in love wif sumone den i will die barhx. i day i will feel in love wif ?? how many guys siax.hahas.
sorry to dat guy. did i like cost trouble to you. if i have i am sorry. i am really sorry.mayb i should stop de bad habit of sms-ing sumone when i am bored.hahas.
currently i won't fall for any gguy anymore. cos i am hurt beyond my limit. i am hurt further more dan i can accept. i am hurt further more dan i can bear the pain. falling in love for me now is so difficult.

everyday.i am hiding. hiding de inner part of me. wen i really wen quiet you all shld think dere is sumthing wrong wif me already.

anyway. I AM SORRY.

2006-06-26T10:36:00.001-07:00

i went to read his blog today. suddenly tears just start to drip down. maybe this is a precious tears cos i haen been crying for one week lerhx. this mayb bery strange you diden see me crying for one week. but the past one week i really tot that my heart had die. really i tot my heart had die, dun have any feeling for him anymore. but. the ans is NO. when i saw his blog. i really cry.he treat her better dan me.he gave her all she want.he listen to her. what am i to him tat tym. jus a ger to let him pass his boredom?? jus someone to acc him when he is dwn. jus someone to let him scold when he is nt feeling realy good. I REALLY DUNNO. he broke my heart once again. maybe i am too stupid. why shld i go bother his life now. its his nt mine. but really it is too much. he treat me like a fool in de past. TEARS JUST KEEP FLOWING. NONSTOP.

2006-06-26T10:36:00.000-07:00

2006-06-24T02:11:00.000-07:00

erm. break my promise yesterdayby watching one match.hahas. watch it with wanping illyana and lizzie after a day of training.quite a boring match. ohgosh. so i was lik rotting down dere. and started to write dis dwn. upper part is wad i have written for wanping. de one below. dun say lerhx. wanpingg say i sumhow wrote her feeling out. maybe this 2 thingy can be dedicated to wanpingg. DARRLINGG. DAT FOR YOU LORHX. hahas. HAIS.

okay. i have drew a pic?? design?? aiyar. jus a thingy for 2006 pop tee. hahas. quite proud of it. but i tink quite messy and nt bery nice.y i am proud of it is bcos. dat de best art piece i ever drew barhx.hahas. hahas. purposely diden put 2 of the sir name if u all have notice.hahas. gib comment can?

2006-06-22T10:41:00.001-07:00

STAFF SERGENT QUEENYLOW.
woohooo.hahas
yeah!! jus promoted!!
got a HERITAGE BADGE and a SILVER TOTAL DEFENCE.

didn't sleep derhx whole day larhx.
so straight away went to school.
TIRED is wad i can feel.
PAIN is wad i can feel also.
cos my throat pain derhx larhx.
got sorre throat.

today wen to ncc campus. train for m16 drill.
the m16 is lik LIGHT. but after holding it for awhile i release dat it is heavier dan de mark 5.
maybe is bcos i XIGUAN lerhx barhx
hai shi NPCC derhx thingy better.hahas
so is lik train. march.train.march.trarin.march.NTH MUCH.
but the BEST PART is we DUNID WEAR BERET.in half uni. woohoo.
frst time larhx.it is cool. hahas.

promotion parade. SUCKS
only 2 pathetic KAOBEI sirs.
in the past we have lik so many larhx.
5 cadets inspectors
+2 woman cadet inspector
+1 alumni
=8 person
NOW 2 only. pathetic
the whole promoton parade seem so DEAD.
the past is so good. with the old gang of CI. and the lively bunch of us.
HAIS

later wen MACDONALD had dinner.
quite a nice one. cos we are like habing a nice chat dere.making a fool out of ourselves
dat wad wwe always do in the past larhx. hahas
and I MAKE A FOOL OUT OF MYSELF. due to my voice.
diden had voice. sound so man siax. lik JOYCELYN. ahahs.
really bad. den kip go off pitch. and de other mak fun of me.
sobsobx derhx lorhx.
hahas. no larhx. cool marhx. at least i make dem laugh.

den wen home.

signingoff
queenyXIAOJIE

2006-06-17T11:20:00.000-07:00

wen sick this few days. sigh. did nth at home. hahas. dis few days lying on my bed. and think of alot of thingy. REALLY WISH THAT DERE WLD BE SOMEONE DERE FOR ME THIS FEW DAYS TO TELL ME THAT HE CARE FOR ME. sigh. hais. aniwa. korkor u bery bad lerhx. hw many neber call me lerhx. dun tell me you watch world cup den neber call me. i will kil you derhx. hahas.
ohyar. mnay days neber see darrling lerhx. inda misses her lerhx. hahas. darrlingg gt miss me marhx. yeeeE. sound so yucky.
currently i misses my darrlingg-tanwanping. my korkor (in japan derhx). zhenxing and yuanze(are you still fine in the ns camp-hahas.)

2006-06-13T09:33:00.000-07:00

13/june 2006
wake up at 12.30 today. cos nid to mit tanWANPING for lunch. as usual she is always late.hahas. hen to block 9**. cAnt rmbr the block number.hhahas. i ate chicken rice. woohoo. so long neber eat lerhx. hahas. wanping eat meepok.hahas.she is like goin to hell when she is eating the meepok larhx. hahas. but she stil manage to finish it. woohoo. applause for miss tanwanping. hahas. den wen to buy BUBBLE TEA. jiejie treat meimei lerhx.hahas. wooohoo. so long neber drink lerhx. nicey nicey lerhx.hahas. de walk ard northpoint while we finish our drink. BOUGHT A NAIL POLISH.hahas. after dat wanping cam my hse. sh dun dare go hm as she scare of her hse. GOT CROCKROACHES.hahas. after she wen home den i wen to slp. had a terrible headache. cos i slp @ 5am yesterday. i tink i slept frm 4- 7.30.hahas. pig barhx. neber mind. cos slping is wad i can do only.hahas.
tonite i found out sumthing terrible. my little ah yi turn crazy. really. no kidding.i tink wadever she gone thru really make her gone siaox lerhx. i really wish tym can turn back and she doenst need to suffer frm all dis terrible thingy.sigh. but wad i can do now is pray for her barhx. unless i gt money den i find a physcology to treat her. BUT M NO MONEY>sobsobx.hais. life is so terrible siax.

14/june 2006
i am here t blog to congrat my darrlingg. hahas. wooohooo. you finally make it. although i didnt manage to make you did it. i was sorry to say so. but u still manage to do it. CONGRAT MAN. thankx for the person who had help her.hahas. but i am not realy myself now when i am blogging now. her hapiness had realy brought sadness to me.hahas. shoulden reallyhad said this. but this is wad i feel now..(OHSHIT I AM CRYING AGAIN. I LOST COS I BET WITH MYSELF I WILL NT CRY). i really feel bad. if i really can say out the truth lik so many ppl out deere woulden it be nice. hahas. but if i really did so. will dat be me. but act. i realy dunno which one i should go for. or should i say which one am i thinking now. hahas.AM I REALLY TRUE TO MYSELF SUMTYM. i dun think so. AIYAR NO MATTER WHAT> DARRLINGG> CONGRAT MAN> kae.later goin to meet darrling and go out study.hahas.

i am stll thikning how long am i goin to lie to myself. how long am i goin to lie to the others. how long am i goin to be free frm all this trouble and crying. MAYBE ONEDAY WHEN I FORGET WHO I AM. has.

2006-06-12T07:02:00.000-07:00

fifa world cup is so damn hot nowadays larhx.hahas. although cannot watch. but i still stay up to 5 to know the first hand result.hahas. o0ps. shulden have say it out. korkor. dun scold horx.hahas.
since everyday slp @ 5am. of course i wake up bery late larhx. always wake up at abt 3-4 pm everyday. act can slp longer derhx. but always wake up by my stupid sister at home mmaking noise. watching tv and talking to her bf. so damn loud larhx. arrrgggHH. i wan more slp everyday is wad was in my mind everyday i woke up.hahas.
today i damn guai.hahas.i wash my fan. cos alot of dust siax. i see lerhx wanna vomit. so decider to wash it. but i was damn stupid. cos i can't tak the thingy out. and i have bruises on my hand.PAIN. sobsob. den i change my bed sheet. haben change for 2 wks lerhx. bery dirty. so change it and i washed it.hahas. alto is use washing machine larhx. but i still damn guai. cos i first tym use it to wash thingy.hahas. den i swept the floor.hahas. guai barrhx.hehes. BUT all dis guai thingy make me have alot of njury. hahas. i slip and fall for 2 tyms today.(while washing fans and mopping floor.) too slippey. den lost balance and i slip and fall. my BUTT IS SO DAMN PAIN NOW. ouch. hahas.
kae dat all. hahas. goin off to study lerhx. hope i can last long in my study.hahas.

2006-06-09T22:36:00.000-07:00

9/may2006
woke up @11.30 to mit de tanwanPING.but tanwanPING woke up late.hahas. so diden took our lunch. and wen to mit the other for the FAREWELL PARTY FOR YUANZE AND CAIZHEN.miting tym is 2pm. but all was late larhx. and left @ 3pm from YISHUN. which is the tym we suppose to mit yuanze and caizhen @ eunos derhx larhx. hahas. by the tym we reach eunos is 4pm.hahas. so we let yuanze and caizhen wait for 1hr. hahas. PAISEH NERHX. NT MY FAULT. I REACH YISHUN ON THE DOTS AT 1PM.HAHAS.
we set off to EAST COAST and on the way dere CAIZHEN FELL DWN LARHX>hahas.kick football in the tunnel and he slip off. i was like stun dere larhx, ohgosh. so worried.summore he tmr nid go army lerhx. now fall dwn shld be bery suay barhx. while cycling @ de front pArt, CAIZHEN FELL AGAIN.AND HIS PALM GOT INJURY LERHX>GOSH LIKE THIS HOW TO PUMP tmr!!poor thingy lerhx. aiyoyo. hope he can manage it on 100fJUNE.god bless.hahas.
while cycling. i was alone. CHOOSE TO BE ALONE. cos i rmbr on dat particular day last yr we were dere cyclin too. he promise me alot of thingy dat tym. he LEFT WITHOUT FINISHING THE PROMISES. hahas. den we went to bowl. actually is yuanze.caizhen and shengyao bowl only larhx. we only in charge of cheering.gagas.
LATER WE SET OFF TO PARKWWAY TO MAKAN @ AJISEN. walao. was damn hungry derhx kae. i had gastric lerhx lorhx. bery bery pain. cos diden have any meal for the whole day larhx. PAIN PAIN PAIN. and we nid to wait for jingyi dey all. MORE PAIN MORE PAIN AND MORE PAIN.argggHhhh. and the food finally cam. i ordered spicy charsew ramen. if i neber rmbr wrongly. and it wAS SPICY LARHX. hahas. and i force myself to finish eating it. ohgosh, stomach is like gastric plus dunno wad kinda of feeling. so i was lik de last to finish my food. BERY BERY LATE DEN FINISH after the last person.hahas.
after went home.start to miss deem after yuanze left. SOBSOB.

10june2006
YUANZE and CAIZHEN have left for NS today. ohgosh. IS DAMN SAD DERHX LARHX. yesterday while sms-ing yuanze. realy burst into tears. and i am bursting into tears now. OHGOSH. found that dey had already became part of my life liaox. they are so cool larhx. deir care and concern for the whole squad, i tink everyone should know barhx. OHMY. really start to miss dem lerhx.and will miss dem lots.BLESS THE TWO OF YOU. JIAYOU LORHX.

2006-06-07T09:11:00.000-07:00

today wake up at 5.30am larhx. i was wad the fucked larhx. damn tired. cos i slept at 4.30am yesterday.it is lik less dan 1 hr of sleep. i had to bath to wak myself up larhx.wen to make pasport and is lik a waste of tym. den later wen to mit up wif wp. yz and cz for lunch. quite a funny lunch.hahas.den wen back sch.yz lobang.hahas.love his car.but always make me wanna vomit.is lik oh gosh.hahas.den saw hw our junior fall in.is lik oh damnit.so slack. and so many casualties.so lan.ohyar. and sunmthing fcuked up happen today.
LIMJIANBOON SAID WANPING AND I ARE SLUT.
is like what the fcuked larhx. what right did he have to say us larhx.he is nth better larhx. he is worse dan a bastard laarhx.pls. i tink no words in this world suit him.hahahahahahs.
after dat wanping went to my hse.den we went crazy for awhile. den she went home and i burnt my hand. knock my head. cut my finger.and my back cramp. is lik ohgosh rite. by dis rate i tink i will die b4 o level.hahas.

2006-06-06T00:36:00.000-07:00

this few days nth better to do then i was like thinking. HOW DO GIRLS NORMALLY REACT IF YOUR BOYFRIENDS WAANT TO BREAK UP WITH YOU BECAUSE HE FELL IN LOVE WITH ANOTHER GIRL??
1.quarrel with him and wanted to know who is the girl
2.give him one tight slap and just walk away
3.won't have any reaction but will find other guy for revenge
4.you will ask the guy whether the girl is better than you(and the ans is yess)than walk away without saying anything.and will like wei ta momo derhx fu chu.
please choose which type of girl you are.

those who choose no.1
that what a normal girl will do.the girl like the guys alortx and wanted to find out wether the girl like her alortx.but this is a different approached from no4. 45%the guy will find you back the girl and stead with him

those who choose no.2
unhappy that she is being ditched by the guy. neber been ditched by guy before. 15%the guy will find back you and stead with him

those who choose no.3
unhappy being ditched and wanted to revenge and think that every guy out dere owe him sumting.70%the guy will find back you and stead with him(the guy will meet trouble after that and will be ditched by this girl)

those who choose no.4
MAYBE thosewhho choose fourth lack of confidence lerhx.or they love the guy too much.lack of confidence is bcos she tink that if the ger is better dan her she would nt be able to fight with the ger to gain back the guy heart.so she rather walk away quietly.love the guy too much.bcos the guy said that the ger is better dan her.which mean the ger will treat the guy better dan her. and the guy will love her more. therefore wanting the guy to be happy.she choose to walk waya quietly.95%the guy will find back you and stead with him(will love the girl more)

the percentage is when the guy break up with the girl and find back you.
those who do not agree with me. pls tagged me and say out your point of view.^((oo))^
guys do you agree with the percentage.

2006-06-03T07:30:00.000-07:00

i dunno why i am living in this stupid world.one i really doesn't really understand.
FAMILY relationship sucks.
STUDY sucks.
TALENT suck.
FRIENDS relationship suck.
LOOK sucks.
CHARACTER sucks.
FIGURE sucks.
EVERYTHING sucks.
really can't find the reason to stay on. i want to die.just leave this world this very day.but i just dun have the courage to end my life. to stop breathing.when i look into the mirror i always ask myself, maybe is the reflection. why am i still living.i tell the reflection not to bluff yourself anymore.
DUN BELIEVE THAT ONE DAY you wil turn pretty.
DUN BELIEVE THAT ONE DAY your family member will tell you that they love you alot.
DUN BELIEVE THAT ONE DAY the person you treat nicely to will say thank you to you.
DUN BELIEVE THAT ONE DAY your life will turn better the next day.
DUN BELIEVE THAT ONE DAY you will own everything that you wish for.
DUN BELIEVE THAT ONE DAY what happpen in the past few day is not truth.
DUN BELIEVE THAT ONE DAY there wil be one person out dere willing to spend every moment with you.
DUN BELIEVE THAT ONE DAY everyone around you is not hypocrite they are really treating you the way they are thinkin.
cos what you dream is false. what you dream will neber come true. what you wish for will never neber become reality.
but do i have any right to scold anyone. the ans is NO.
i have no right to point at the person i hate and say
"hey you. you realy suck. you know this world doesn't belong to you."
i don't have the right to point at my parent and say
" tell you what. i really don't like you even you are like the closer around me. who are you to scold me for nth and dote her like siaox. jus bcos i dunno how to bootlick you all.just bcos i dun have the pretty face. or just bcos i dun have the genes that you all have.maybe i am not one of your daughter. i am just someone pickup by you all by the roadside. and you adopt me. RIGHT??"
do i have the right to tell you that
"hey i noe i am not as pretty as her. i noe she gt every piority to do what she want. then my den come into cionsideration. her dance is more important right. my NPCC is lik kana sai rright. she say she want go dance can. i go for NP cannot.she gt chalet den i should be the one stuck at home. if she say she dun want go out then okae lorhx. if i dun want go out. then i die die also must come out. no dun like or feel derhx RIGHT."
or can i tell her
" why should i help you lie to mama dat you dun ve any stead. why should i help to inform you when is mama coming to find you. and help you have a luxurious life wif him."
NO i dun have the right to say that to you all . cos y. i am always someone that you all dun't look up to.i am one useless person that you all shouldn't BREED me at all you al dun respect. yin wei wo lian qing shou dou bu ru. okae. MAN YI LE MARHX.yin wei i must suck up to you all in other to live in this world.i must suck up to you all in rder to have one bowl of rice to eat. in this world i dun have every right to do anything. i should just set my timetable as EAT. SLEEP. STUDY. SPY. EAT. SLEEP. STUDY. SPY. ... ... or you should jus tur me into a robot. cos living as a robot is much more better than this. at least i wun have feeling. and shed for anyone of you.
I AM TIRED OF BEING MYSELF. ALWAYS LUAGHING IN FRONT OF PEOPLE. MAKING PEOPLE THINK THAT I AM SOME ONE CRAZY. TIRED OF BEING ONE THAT LOOK LIKE SHE WILL ALWAYS PROTECT HERSELF AND THOSE AROUND HER.ONE THAT IS ALWAYS STORNG AND CAN HANDLE HER OWN PROBLEM.I AM REALLY TIRED.
HOW I WISHED SOMEDAY THERE WIL BE SOMEONE THAT WILL MAKE ME LAUGH. HOW I WISH SOMEDAY SOMEONE WILL PROTECT ME.HOW I WISH SOMEDAY SOMEONE WILL SHARE MY PROBLEM AND SOLVE IT WITH ME.EVEN IT IS LIKE THTE FRIENDS AROUND ME I ALSO DON"T MIND.BUT THIS IS TOO FAR UPON REACHING.

2006-06-02T20:54:00.000-07:00

okae.i am posting up this picture is bcos many say i lok quite nice in this way. so means i am better looking if i walk the jap way? people. please gib comment. whether i should like change my style to jap??hahas. feeling a little stupid now..hahas.

2006-06-02T20:04:00.000-07:00

finaly i am back to blog. let talk about yesterday
2/june 2006
it was another parade day.the most tiring parade since sec4. i tink only the npccc goh will feel dis way barhx. cos we are the only stupid one. marching and marhcing all the way larhx. and the most paiseh derhx is we march wrongly. arghhhHH. yesterday was likn damn hot. somemore we are in lik ful uni. ohgoosh this is lik lagi worst larhx. okae. enuff complaining. den as usual we went to ljs for our lunch. hahas.
3/june 2006
jus woke up. den i come blog lerhx. oh gosh i slp for abt 13 hrs lerhx. gagas. i noe is lik wad the. but i feel reaaly tired. cos that day before i slp for only least dan 1 hr(chatting on the fone) then went for parade the whole day lerhx. tired rite. so i slp for bery bery long today to pu hui.hahas. but slping for 13 hrs is worst. i found that my eyes is damn swollen now. ohgosh. uglyugly. aiyar. neber mind, since i am ugly lerhx. y should i lik bother rite. ohyar. i also found out that i twist my hand. arghhh. i PAIN.argghhhHH.i am such a suay person.

2006-05-29T02:04:00.000-07:00

27ofMAY
went to orchard cineleisure kbox. sing i tink for 2 and 1/2 hr. for i tink 7.50 each. quite cheap larhx. but de surrounding is not bery nice.stil prefer kster. alto @ chinatown but de surrunding dere bery gd. much comfor and familiar. hahas. suggestion. want go sing wif 2-3 ppl. go kster. if a grp go kbox. hahas.den went to change serene pants. SERENE CHUA. i treat you bery good rite. on my b'day go help you change lerhx. and bcos of you den we went kbox sing derhx. must be grateful oake.hahas. den went bugis. shop shop and shop for my present. diden fpund any. but if you look into my friendster. dere is one shirt i wld lik to buy.muahahaas. i bought make-up kit larhx. a facial powder (brand=zA) a bursher (in2it) and a eyeliner(maybelline) cos want to go tak neoprint. den find dat my he yan quan coming out. and forget t bring my makeup kit out. so went to buy. quite ex. total $30+++. forget de price lerhx.hahas.den went to take neo. go and look at my friendster barhx. all dere. the first tym tak until so nice.muahaas. den bought a bag for all my makup $32.95 niax. so cheap rite. and also nice.muahahas. den went esplanade and took foto. zilian.muahahahas. went home. is wanping went home larhx. i @ my hse dwnstair wait for my friends. talk and talk and talk. of course deir usual present. buy food and celebrate.and also alcohol larhx.muahahas.

280fMAY.
stayed at home. feel upset de whole day. dunno y.sigh.

29ofMAY.
ppl habing o level chi. wishes dem good luck on 28 by sms-ing. and sumthing bery stupid occur. shoulden descrie. if you want noe den ask me barhx.muaahahahas. went to find darrlingg and have lunch. @KFC.hahas. quite nice but also full. and den here i am bloggin.hahhahas.

2006-05-26T09:10:00.000-07:00

yeah it is my birthday. 27 of may.muahahas. 17 lerhx. older by one. but i am still goin to act cute. to entertain ppl.muahahas. erm. let me see. first to wish me is YUANZE. can you believe it. is him larhx. and he say happy birthday and can go and sleep lerhx. omg.hahas. so touched. next is someone i dunno.add me in msn den dunno hu is it. den is DARRLINGG.so dis is de top 3 hu wish me happy birthday firsst,muahahas. so touched. and wanping is lik record her voice singing happy birthday song.muahahas. so kawaii and touched. and also funny.muahahas. and den she wen to slp.hahas. cos gt to wake up early to go out wif me marhx. i am also goin to slp lerhx. after posting this. aniwa. thankx pl. for de wishes. the present and also de cakes larhx. had alot of cake on de 26 of may. frm np squad. my korkor and jiejie. and my family. wao. is lik omg. goin to grow fat. NONONO.muahahas.okae. larhx. thank everyone. love you all even you dun love me.hahahas.muahahas. thankx. byebye.

2006-05-25T04:27:00.000-07:00

woa. sianx. schol really sucks man.arghh.jus went dere to chat ad sleep.argh. tao yan.idiotic. today in sch do nth much. jus chat and sleep. b4 recess. sleep and went fro dental. den after recess. have a samll chat wif ms tang abt how to kip ourself pretty. learn alot today,hahas. ms tang so nice to talk to larhx.hahas. den later. prefect investiture. sianx. and mrs sim announce sumthing impt. GERS CAN HAVE LONG HAIR FROM NO ONWARDS. WOOOHOOO. chio siax.hahas. fianly larhx. i tink the no of gers goin to dance club will decrease and decrease.good luck man. dance club.muahhahaas.

BURTHDAY COMING SOON. UT I LIKE NO MOOD. SIANX.

2006-05-23T06:03:00.000-07:00

went to school today. serioulsy another bored day in school. did nth except during eng lesson.mdmm sue taught us word empowerment all dat. i was lik sianx.ohyar. kanna for parent meeting. suay siax. is lik firsttym in my whole studying year larhx. omg. lets pray hard mr goh wun say sumting bad. after sch, wen play bb. but diden play much cos of our de stupid gay. colin no2 and kero no2. wear couple shirt somemore.oh gosh.muahahas.
went for parade. erm. not parade larhx. is learn drill.we learn m16 drill.it lik quite diff at first cos diffrent marhx, den late master lerhx stil oake larhx.was a quite sianx drill practice. sigh. den later wen to makan. wif huiyan + jiahon (one couple) colin no2 and kero no2 (two couple) + pathetic me and wanping. no one beside us. we so damn poor thingy. and in mac. i was lik a luaghing machine. small small thing also laugh lerhx. esp when talk until kero and colin.is lik omg larhx. hahas.
i tink kero and colin reall really bery shuai lerhx. erm mayb colin only larhx. kero belong to de kawaii type.hahas. perfect couple. make me envious. make me wan to be a les.for a sec. den i think i am not suitable. cos i see until shuai ge i wil still drool larhx. so no choice.hahas. i stil need to remain as a normal person and le a perfect life. sianx. hahas.maybe i shld appreciate my 17 life and try to change myself. thinner and wif less pimple. if i dun change by de age of 18. i wil change my sex type to les. wait barhx. wait for another 1 yr and 4 more days. and see if i turn into a better person. hahas.
life really sux. when you are not a pretty ger or a shuai ge. cos you wil always remain in the darkness. have no idea where to go. cos ppl will look dwn on you unless you are really dat clever or famous or rich barhx. which i all dun ve larhx. pathetic me with pathetic life. and it is even more pathetic when your sister is10 tym chio-er dan you and had a better character dan you. sianx. I NEED AN EXTREME MAKEOVER. GOD HELP ME.

2006-05-20T06:59:00.000-07:00

19OFmay2006 friDAY
basically did nth in sch today, jus play and play alto my result is lik fail fail n fail. den i tink mr goh need to meet my parent. is lik wad de FUCK. walao eh. see see see. nth better to do hurx. aiyar. anithingf larhx.den wen to np. tink we getting weaker n weaker. and i tink sec 4 is nt tt bond anymore lerhx. is lik last tym at least ger n guy wil lik eat together and now is orhx. u wan go den go first lorhx. so saddening. sad sad situation. after np. ger wen to eat. while waiting for bus. hahas. saw yuanze driving home. so ask him long bang. and de 8 ger jus squeeze into his big big car and off we went to north. in de bus we heard dadada by cyndi. so i was lik sinign along wif de music.ahahas.so cool. den serene is so damn bhb larhx. wanping had an ant on her hand. and sudenly serene was lik saying sorry. den i was lik hurx. for abt 5s den i said. orhx you mean you too sweet arhx. den she was lik yar. phengx siax.omg larhx. hahas. SERENE ATTRACT ANTS. SO BE CAREFUL HORX. lol.aniwa. YUANZE PAISEH HORX. make your car SMELLYandDIRTY.hehes.

20OFmay2006 saturDAY
yippie wen shoping. hahas. wen to shop for serene's present larhx. we were lik loking high n low for a nice white shorts. buut diden found any. so wen to buy another colour near to white.PAISEH LORHX SERENE.den after searching for her present. meWANPING. wen to shop for accessories.and i declare myself as de SKULL QUEEN.and wanping as de CROWN QUEEN.ahhas. wao. is lik finallyy i got wad i want. a bigbigbig skull necklace. a golden skull ring. a red and black strip skull socks. a white skull clip.one skull ear stud.not 1 pair is ONE. 3 other diff type of ear studs.hahas. so happy.nut is lik spend alot of money. i tink almost $60 ++++/.omg. ME DECLARE BROKE. wanping bought a crown necklace. a crown hair clip. a crown earring. and de other side of de earring is a alarm clock.hahas.she just spend ant $20 niax. walao. she noe how to save siax. i am someone hu cann't save money. DIE DIE DIE.yarx. bought finsh den wen to eat kfc. saw serene on de way to kfc. den i was lik hiding de present away frm her larhx.hahas.
ohyar. in KFC.me and wanping. were sitting beside 2 guy. duno is abt to enter uni or ant to enter jc/poly. and dey were lik NTU NUS NTU NUS NTU NUS. den later another 2 sec sch dey r in. omg. and me and wanping is lik exchanging idea thru our mind. hahas. and den we laugh and laugh and laugh. big thing also laugh. smalll thingy also laugh. for dunno wad reason siaz.hahas.den suddenlt wen i stop laughing and look towards one of de guy direction. (I WASNOT LOOKING AT HIM. BUT THE WALL BEHIND HIM.) den he was lik starring at me lik i was looking at him larhx.vomit larhx.den wanping also had de sam kind of look by another guy. and wen we bof stop laughing and was lik starring at our food. de guys also lok at urs larhx. it is lik WAD IS SO DE PROBLEM LARHX>hmpf.fee lik digging bof of deir eyes out. ARGHHHH. den wen home as wanping habing family dinner together. SIANX. end of de day.

2006-05-18T05:59:00.000-07:00

diden went to school today. as plan larhx.hahas.school jus sucks now. go dere n slp only wad de point rite. so slp n slp until 12 plus den wake up and start to fu nian lerhx. cos my face is really a disater now. couldn't imagine how will i look tmr wif my beret on and my face is emptynwithout any thingy tto copver all dose scar. omg. and dose big big de pimple. argh.. so fu my face for about 1 hr n 15 mins wif cucumber and tomato. den wanping cam to my hse for lunch.have to save money dis week cos we goin shopping dis sat.hahahs. cool. we had been lik planning to go out for 1 mth lerhx.hahas. and de day is lik getting nearer and nearer.yippie.hahas. me fneg lerhx.okae oake. den we went singing n singing. cos really nth much to do in my hse. cos my hse is design for slping niax. hahas.ohyar. wen wanping left my hse. den i apply another mask. i noe i bery vein. but no choice is my face larhx. must take care if nt. it will be rough lik rock den u will be seeing me crying everyday.cos i wan to make myself blind to be able to not see myself.hahas. nwin my lifee. making my face have less pimple is my goal.hahas.okae larhx. is lik i am too bhb llerhx.erm.

9 more days to my birthday lerhx.YEAHX.

2006-05-17T08:09:00.000-07:00

hey ppl. queenylow is back to blog.hahas. okae. it is like my exam is finaly over lerhx. tt y i am blogging now.erm dis is lame. okae. dis exam week is lik torturing, diden study at all.jus open de book and stare. so when the exam paper was lik in front of me. i was lik okae, dis is difficult. sleeping tym now. so wen to slp after i did wad i know. i tink only eng, chi history social studies and a-math paper 1 i diden slp barhx.hahas, po ji lu lerhx lorhx. but no matter wad larhx. i will strive hard for my o cos i am starting to study now. dunno y. i siao lerhx barhx.
17 of may. holiday for chung cheng brach student.woohoo. hahas. wen everyone is lik goin shoping. and having fun demselves. me and wanping wen for a facial wash.hahas.was like a disaster. de aunty say my face turn bad.wao. almost cry larhx. and all thank to my mama bought dunno wad lai li bu ming de cream den ask me apply. and dere go my face. wreak.sigh. neber mind.i will use a week tym to make it a better one.hahas.i promise cos tt my b'day larhx.hahas. jiayou lorhx my face.hahas.
tmr not goin to school.jua dun feel lik goin.hahas.
ahem. my b'day is on 27 of may lerhx.know wad to do horx.hahas.

2006-05-04T03:33:00.000-07:00

exam. exam. exam. scary. scary, scary. omg larhx.hahas. chemistry parctical. sigh. can;t get the other cations. been guessing for quite a while.but still get it wrong.hais. practical so sucky. nearly fainted during the physic practical. can't see a thing larhx. is lik yucks. but luckily ms wong said i pass. of course nt wif flying colour larhx. graph wrong marhx.hahas.den is eng pp1 and chi pp1.still manageable.but chi pp1 ying yong wen die lerhx. i tink only score 10/20.sianx.i wrote 2 n 3/4 long lerhx. den all gone to waste.today. ss. die. no tym do lerhx. was lik rushing lik mad from the start liaox. but still lik aiyar. forget about it.ahhas. den a-math. me pro. neber study at all siax.hahas. die liaox. i spend 30 mins to do all the thingy i know which ios abt 38 markx.den see everyone mugging. continue to think of dose dunno derhx. den left 24 markx dunno how to do derhx.hhahas. pro marhx.aniwa. de paper is over 80 okaae.so is quite pro lerhx larhx.when i haben been listening in class since last yr june.is lik slping tym for me wen it reach math lesson.hahas

many days had past.my tot of you haben change. maybe this is goin to tie me up until the end of the year before i am able to relax and make full use of my life.seeing friends around me is turning better. i had nothing better to worry lerhx.maybe exam is making all they think now.i dunno. but is good to see you all turning form a sadsad babies to a naughty one.hahas.okae larhx. dis is kinda of disgusting larhx.but dunno what to say marhx.

a DEAD DRAGONFLY.was found IN MY ROOM.yesterday. i diden go and care abbt it. wan it to die in peace marhx, but den horx. i found ants starting to crawl in. den the DRAGONFLY IS COVERED BY ANTS. i was lik omg. then i quickly take the tissue and clean it. it was lik FINALLY CLEAR. then i drop the tissue.OMG. NATS STARTING TO CRAWL OUT. had to kill dem one by one. fainting. spend 20 mins to clean up the whole mess siax. SSTUPID DRAGONFLY. SHOULDEN HAD LET YOU DIE IN PEACE.arghh.HAO XIN MEI HAO BAO.

2006-04-22T10:47:00.000-07:00

when i am walking down de road. i tot of you. making the others worried. i am sorry. but the emotion is dere. lots of memory just flash back. hw we quarrel. how we laugh. how we make fun of each other. how we do everything dere together. sigh. looking at the stretch of road. dat seem so safe and secure den but so eerie and lonely now. i wan you back. but i know it is impossible. now i wil depend on my friends. but is tt enuff??

2006-04-18T09:12:00.000-07:00

i suddenly feel that i don't need anyone other dan my friends. hahas. study hard for my o
is my aim now.

2006-04-16T18:42:00.000-07:00

am i really going to score well for my O.
am i really going to get into the course i wanted to go?
am i really getting married 5 ys later at the age of 22.
am i really going to have only 1 child.
am i just having illusion?
i just doesn't want to think anymore.
i want to be like dabai. let the fate decide everything.
may god let 1704 be the date forever.
and let everything turn out to be true.

people. thanks for your concern. although i am not really strong. but i think i still can survive.

2006-04-16T00:25:00.000-07:00

I NEED TO BE COUNSELLED MARHX??

2006-04-15T01:58:00.000-07:00

i feel like i am a dead human now.
i am trying to make myself laugh at everything.at every moment.at every person.
the laughter just come out for nothing.

i diden want ppl to know that i am not happy.
i diden want ppl to think that i am weak.
i diden want ppl to know that i can't handle some easy job.
i diden want ppl to be sad when i am the reason for.
i diden want ppl to be hurt just because of me.
i diden want to make ppl suffer.
i diden want to suffer because i make ppl suffer.
i diden want to see the other side of me, the weak side of me.
i diden want to cry anymore.
i diden want to be alone anymore.

i have many thing that i doesn't wish to do. but i keep making the same old mistake.
am i the one who is making this mistakee. or is it that everyone i met is like this.
am i the one that cause people to lie. or is the people i met like to lie.
am i the one that make people suffer. or is the person i met want to suffer.
i dunno. i seriously have no idea.but i know that when everthing turn out to be a lie.i just can't take it.i dunno whether i shld sit down there and make myself laugh or cry. cos the hist0ry is repeating itself. now i am sitting alone. duno who i am and dunno what i am suppose to do to make me survive. i just cry and cry. hoping that my future maybe bright enough for me to walk through my whole life.

i have no one.i am alone. standing at my place. fighting the war alone. i am tired. i need someone to accompany me. even if he is not the one helping me to fight the war. i just need him to stand by my side and accompany and make me happy.when thing is out of hand, maybe he can think of idea to make me survive. but it is so impossible. cos. i am stil the same old ugly me. NO LOOK. NO KNOWLEDGE. NO CHARACTER. NO PERSONALITIES. NO BRAIN. NO FIGURE. NO EVERYTHING.

maybe becoming a lesbian is not a bad idea.but i can't force myself to like girl.cos ger are just not my tatse.

2006-04-13T10:45:00.000-07:00

dun quite like myself now. dun quite like what i am doin now. sigh. i know i am a bitch. yarhx. i am one. but i am not playing with your feeling. and i wun play with any one feeling. i am true with what i feel abt you.i really have that feeling for you.but it is not just so simple. when you are being hurt once.when that guy say i want this as my last memory of our relationship b4 i go in. i agreed.but i just can't do it. and he told me he had wasted his tym on me. and this is what you told me now. i am really hurt. u just want that thingy. not me as a soul mate. thank for letting me know de truth.i really wanto thank you for being so frank. why is every guy like dis. when dey want that thingy. dey will try ways to throw you so high up to do that thing.and drop you so low when you say no and make up reason to say no. i seriously dunno. u all can't survive without that is it. okae. i am sorry for letting you wasting tym on me and also money. i am sorry okae. paiseh paiseh paiseh paiseh.is wad i can say. but dun u all think tt u all are also bery guo fen wen you say that to a ger. it totally sux. where is dat kind of mutual respect.i hate it. i hate everything from now on. shoulden have believe in one again. staying single will be my only solution now. and focus on my study.
DARLLING WHERE ARE YOU AT THIS MOMENT. I AM LOST. TOTALLY LOST. SIGH

2006-04-12T09:44:00.000-07:00

i am so damn tired of life now. every now and then you have to make one decision.sigh. i am in a dilemma. struggling myself out a big pool of water to get some one to help me or to miracally survive if i try hard enuff. but am i able to do so. i dunno.
today went to watch the band concert. everything is so f*** up. although i had a great tym at the beginning while i was with my darling. it is so sweet larhx. at least. i can't don't think that much.and i can shop lerhx.hahas. den went to long john. at first is dun wan makan derhx. den see my darling gonna eat alone. den acc darling eat lerhx lorhx. hahas. seriously can't finish de food larhx. i eat one piece of chicken and 1/2 of the fries and then the others to my didi ZHENYU and marlon.hahas. see them eat is like so hilarious larhx.dey lik neber eat for bery long tym liaox derhx lorhx.hahas.
walking to victoria concert hall is so damn tiring. I NEED A CAR. sobsob larhx.hahas.the concert is so damn boring. shoulden had bought it in de first place. then some more wif the chao bin of someone. i get more f*** up lorhx. he lik finding fault with us larhx. hmpf. nehnehx larhx. OHYAR> THE BEST PART IF THE CONCERT IS THE SPONGE BOB SQUAREPANTS SONG.hahas. so damn kawaii derhx lorhx.hahas.
after concert. we WALK to esplanade. yarx ESPLANADE.so damn far, lucky i got darling sia.if nnot i wil be so damn bored. as the others is like so damn fast and i am so damn tire and so damn slow.hahas.o0ps too much DAMN words lerhx nerhx.hahas. BUT. BUT. darling also start to get bored lerhx lorhx. and made my spirit YI LUO QIAN ZHANG.hahas.and my mood diden get better until we walked to the citylink. where XINYI korkor. and ZHENYU didi. make me laugh. finally find back my own self.hahas.den in de train. i am like so happy.talking to ZHEN.hahas.
DARLING. I AM SORRY I AM NOT ABLE TO MAKE YOU HAPPY. HOPE YOU WIL NOT BE THAT STRES ANYMORE. REMEMBER> YOU WILL ALWAYS HAVE ME BESIDE YOU. SUPPORTING YOU, NO MATTER WHAT DECISON YOU HAVE MADE LORHX>JIAYOU NERHX.hahas.

2006-04-09T23:05:00.000-07:00

quarrel and quarrel is what i always did when i was about to start a talk with my parent.it is like so stupid.

saturday. i clear out my thought with my mum.okae. i was threathen to be thrown out of my house. i was liike throw larhx. and i started to pack my thingy. evrything all packed up. and that woman coem in and shouted at me if i dare to step out of the house den she will jump down from my house.i was lik wtf larhx. one momen you ask me out of the house and de other moment. you say you will jump down if i leave the house. pls larhx. speak what you think larhx. idiotic.after all i diden LI JIA CHU ZHOU.and i stayed n my room. locked up.and i fell asleep after a moment.

sunday. i frm sat 11pm sleep until 10am.woke up by my stupid sister talking to her bf. was like so loud and i shouted at her f***, diam diam larhx.den i wen back to sleep at 1/2 hr later. and woke up at 2p.m. and found out mel was like quarrelling with his parent. so sad. wish i can be there with him. sigh. stupid me. hu ask me quarrel wif my parent and i was like kanna ban at home larhx. stupid idiot. neber mind. den i chatted with him for awhile. and he lik stop sms me.i was lik kinda of worried. but i fell asleep again.hahas. o0ps. so sorry. and woke up at 8pm. eat my dinner and locked myself up in my room again. 10.30 pm. i finally got his news. and he was walking alone in city hall all by himself. i was lik WAD. are you okae or sumthing. and he tell me what happen. kinda of worried. wanted to call him and chat derhx. but he say his hp low batt den i was lik orhx okae. den i wen to watch tv. DAMN WORRIED FOR HIM.arghh. wad happening in this world. F***.

today morning wake up. diden feel lik goin to sch. so wen back to sleep after waking up my sister.hahas. den slp and slp again until 12.30pm. came online at 1.30. and wad i saw was. 'i am sorry. I LOVE YOU'. so damn sad. and i started to cry. i care so much and all i get back is this. wtf. he diden wan to tell me hu is she summore. and say he write for fun derhx.i was lik yars. you are rite man. is lik wad the larhx. okae neber mind. can't force someone to like someone also. sigh.

goin to meet wp later for math remedial.sigh.2 days neber see her lerhx.so damn mis her and her stupid face. always brought me laughter derhx. hahas.

2006-04-05T03:37:00.000-07:00

today wen mac with wanping n zhenyu. sit dere for bery long. hahas. sing n talk for so long larx. and i realise sumting.yearhx. my b'day is coming soon. 1 mth and 26 days.hahas. and me, wanping and zhenyu list down wad we want for our b'day.

my list:
1> mp3 (i dun mind if there are 20 over ppl sharing and buy me some cheap one.)
2> money (hangbao)
3> laptop ( but i think mama is goin to help me with it and get it nxt yr)
4> spectacles
5> bag
6> wallet
7> ruan ruan de soft toys (but not make of de polyester beans derhx.)
8> no clothes pls. if wan giv me money and i wil buy it myself. ( i bery niao derhx)
9> hp (mama.pls)

wanping list:
1> hp
2> $$$$$ (she write <$50 when she wanted >$50.hahas.)
3> watch
4> accessories
5> spectacles
6> laptop
7> eyeore or sylvester (soft toys derhx)
8> LCD
9> CD
10> bag
11> clothes

zhenyu list: actually is we think for him derhx larhx.hahas
1> eggyolk (12 dozen)= (24 eggs according to wanping again)
2> longer hair
3> neater eyebrown
4> less pimple
5> more meat on his body
6> more shirt ( he is always wearing the same shirt out.)
7> not so lazy anymore

that all. today ms nora is being hate by quite a number of teachers lerhx.sigh.wan noe y? ask me larhx.hahas.me kpo siaz.hahas

2006-04-03T04:34:00.000-07:00

if i know what i am suppose to do and at the correct time. then i shoulden have friends anymore. but you know what. the only thing i don't need is you. always you. anyway thanks for letting me know the truth and accept it.

2006-03-30T06:08:00.000-08:00

i am a bitch.

2006-03-28T00:54:00.000-08:00

schoolfor me nowaday is sleeping time. just can't concentrate well. especially ms wong lesson. maybe i am too lazy to listen or wad.sigh. seeing everybody working hard for their o level really mke me feel out of place.MUST WORK HARD LIAO.

nowaday i feel like a big big heart that had stop pumping.a nose who had stop breathing. a piece of skin who had lost it senses of touch. an eye that had been poked. a mouth that had lost its tasting ability. my life is so sucky. i don't bare to see him. i don't dare to touch him. i don't dare to smell him. i really don't dare to talk to him. sigh.maybe there is one day i would bring up all my courage and tell him. but where and when will i?

ai zhen de na me mei hao mah?

2006-03-25T02:39:00.000-08:00

I've given away my heart,
So it could be torn into pieces.
He left me with the feelings of being forgotten.
I'm so in love, yet so alone, with one years thrown away.

Feeling his absense hurts the most.
My constant urge to call is almost taking over, while on the other side, my cycle of feelings starts with rage.
Slowly going into sadness, rage again, desperation, devastation, and finally denial.

Every morning I open my eyes to emptiness.
Seeing a long black hallway with nothing in between.
This so-called love has taken over my life leaving me distracted.

Days pass by and now my emotions are going crazy.
Leaving me no choice but to vomit.
To empty my pesimistic thoughts.
To stop thinking my life is over.
To stop my tears everynight from falling.
To stop feeling like my heart has shattered into fifty pieces.

The hardest part of moving on is the love towards you on top of all my misery.
But soon enough I'll go to bed realizing I survived this struggle.
I need to escape my depression to continue breathing.
And regain my strength to love again.

2006-03-24T07:59:00.000-08:00

it really hurt to see you like this.i dun know why is it like this.stop blaming yourself..it is not your fault.you are maaking me cry.

2006-03-22T00:17:00.000-08:00

life.
life is one with lots of decision.
life is one with lots of problems needed to be solved.
life is one where people had to oversome many test.
life is one with lots of crying moment.
life is one where you must worried about the future.
life.nobody would want to continue with it.

2006-03-19T23:46:00.000-08:00

i am sick nehx.i am crazy lerx.i am crying almost everyday nehx.i really dunno what is happening to me.i have totally change.change from a girl that is very enthu in life to someone who is lack of love.someone who is craving for love.maybe i am despo bahx.i seriously dunno.sigh.

i thinkwo zai zhuan yi mu biao le.as the time grow longer.my feeling towards you are fading.i dunno how you feel towards me.and i am scare to tell you how i feel towards you.i am scared.i am feling lonely.i am feeling out of place.sigh.

2006-03-18T06:10:00.000-08:00

today.i go neoprint freak.insist if taking neo. although i noe wanping no money.hahas.but neber mind larx.she also agree mahx.have great fun there.but the machine seriously suckx.cos we dun even noe when it is taking narhx.omg larx.hahas.as usual i lok so stopid in neos.hahas.sigh.nth to write le.i am sick.

ohyar.limjunrong.go and see the sinseh.tanruohan.are you feeling better now?tanwanping.are u still thinking that much.buddy.you are always my buddy.winkx.caizhen.are you okae?jiajia.you okae anot.heard that u are sick. are you okae.shinni.singapore bery warm hor.hehes.

2006-03-16T22:40:00.000-08:00

sorry my dearest friends.i know sum of you esp wanping is always there with me. but that is bery different kind of support.really different kind.went you go thru hard ship.you can't exactly ask for sumone who is smaller than you for advice.cos.they mayb lack of experience.paiseh.i am so sorry.after writing the post yesterday.i was like kana 20+ person shoot le.sigh sigh.paiseh le.winkx.=)

ah ken korkor.thankx for calling yesterday.realli nice to have a chance to talk to you neh.BUT.your sheng yin hor.hahas.so funny.must go take care wor.sayang.thankx for ur jokes neh.so funny.BUT.i swear i will not repeat de jokes again.hahas.so.is lik so.hahas.shoulden say.=0.winkx.long dist call expen le.paiseh wor.

nowaday.many ppl seem r hurt.mentaly n physically.sigh.
#wanping#really.dun think too much le lar.you hor everyday also so sad.den dun wan say out.hui gao huai sheng ti de wor.
#caizhen#you also dun think too much lar.alto i duno wad u think.hahas.amd then hor take care le.dun play bb den lost dat thingy.hahas.
#buddy#fang qi ba.bu ran hui shou shang de.
#fangjiejie#da bu zhi de ni de hou.okae??jie de hor.
#junrong#take care of ur finger.hahas.
#mervin#ur blister okae le mah??
#yuanze#ur leg okae le amh?
#me#decide le mah??hahas.
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2006-03-16T05:44:00.000-08:00

wen for facial today.so tired lar.hahas.imagine u lie down dere for 3hrs n 30 mins.i tink ur back wil break ba.hahas.only ur leg can move.gonna faint.hahas.at there.de facial aunty scold me. y put foundation.spoil my face.sadsad.i promise her i wo't make up le.until she say yes.hahas.
den at there she keep mentioning wanping.hahas.she say my face better dan her.hahas.yippie.den she say hers is dunno what germs arh.hahas.okae lar. dun laugh at her lar.cos she gt one good point.she wil not look old.hahas.okae.let hope my face wil turn beter.

korkor.u become my only support now.i am so sick of living.quarrelling with parent is part of my life now.gettin sick.mentally n physically.

2006-03-15T02:10:00.000-08:00

i start to realise there is many thing in life we are unable to control.
i always think that i am very strong.
BUT you.make me think that i am so weak.
i am very scared.
i am scared to face this world.
COS.when i see you care for others.WO CHI CHU LE.
i hope you will give me hope by letting me see you smile.

2006-03-14T02:39:00.000-08:00

just came back from the camp.this oreintation camp is like watching the boys play bb games and girls sleeping camp.hahas.
on the first of camp.wen to play bb early in the morning. at 7.30a.m.hahas.actually i diden play lar.is watch the guys play.so much fun watching them play.not like my other friends all so like dead.hahas.den went to tuition for a-math.hahas.skip master parade.with wanping,elizabeth,junrong and jiahon.hahas.lnch no appetite to eat.dunno y.den force myself to eat dinner.hais.
the mini-concert.quite okae lar.is not really fun.sianx.hahas.den the campfire.a disaster.like nobody is singing.den no choice.me and wanping were like straining our voice to the fullest.wanti ng to bring up the mood.but like nothing is improve le.sigh.during new friends found.stoopid zhenxing n yuanze seperate me and wanping.sobsobx.sigh.okae.BUT...BUT...the whole thingy is jianboon say we neber sing.wad the hell is this man.pls.kil u arh.dig uur eyes out man.arghhHH
supper.disaster.made my mood from okae okae de.to angry.furstrated.agitated.to alot alot lar.den wanping.so both of us neber talk.i was like think more.then i cried.sigh.okae.first day alot of disaster until we finish bathing.sigh.
after bathing.yuanze teach me history.hahas.he speak softly hor.keep go off key.hahas.keep using my towels to hide myself.hahas.after teaching zhenxing started to talk about ghost storied.not realy scary.only their facial expression scared me.ohyar.
2nd day more sianz.watch bb n slp again.sigh.realli nth to do.hahas.

what i saw when i watch the boys watch bb
mervin:he sumtime catch ball like the ball got fire lik dat.hahas.
junrong:too kan cheong.lag lar.hahas.
alvin:hen you ling dao fen ge
shengayo: actually can shot de.hahas.but he ran too fast.
raymond:always can't ctahc the ball ppl passed him.
yuanze:hahas.like kid playing bb sia.all the expression so cute.hahas.esp,wen he manage to scare zhenxing n meifong.

ppl dun get angry when you read this.cos i dun mean to hurt u all.hahas.

2006-03-12T09:34:00.000-08:00

coming upon this world. is wrong.
coming upon to know you. is wrong.

tired of living.
tired of knowing the truth.
tired of facing the truth.
tired of waiting for you.
tired of having to know you are not there for me.
tired of everthing about you.

sick of not getting to hear the fact.
sick of not getting to hear anything about you.
sick of not getting to know i dun love you anymore.
sick of not getting to know whether i love him anot.

my dream is so sweet
i dun wish to open my eyes.
to know everything of the reality.
i dun wish to open my eyes.
to know i shed because of you.
i dun wish to open my eyes.
to know that i have dream of you.
i dun wish to open my eyes.
to know that there is no one for me.
i dun wish to open my eyes.
to know that i am sinking in the next moment.

but. i can't forget about you. you always appear
but. i can't forget about the past. which i pass by everyday.

the only resolution is to fell in love with another guy.but WHO?

2006-03-11T01:08:00.000-08:00

had a funny dream.hahas.can't rmbr too clearly.
scence 1 i was playing bb games with a bunch of friends that i dun usually play with.
scene 2 i was packing up my bag.
scene 3 de bunch of guys are asking a guy 'a' to come forward.
scene 4 de guy'a' lik gt sumthing to tell me
scene 5 my shuaishuai de 'gorgor' came den scolded at me askiung me go with him
scene 6 me feeling weird and loss
secen 7 my 'gorgor' help me pack my bag
scene 8 de guy'a' walk towards me and say he lik me
scene 9 being pulled away by 'gorgor'
scene 10 den i cried on my way back
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dunow wad happen after that.sigh.but i know how the guy look like.lol

dunno what happen to me.sigh.yesterday jr maade me cry.den today.wen iron clothes i cry 4 tym.den i take afternoon nap.den i found myself waking up crying.sigh.i just love crying ba.hahas.

i am goin crazy.somewhere.somehow.

2006-03-09T03:41:00.000-08:00

got back de result today.its lik a sigh.BIG BIG SIGH. all the mark is so fake.all de mark is so unreal.all de mark is so far. all de mark are lik within reach.arghhhHH.okae lar.i make a point not to copy le.for dis year.so i diden copy much.so annoucement of my result.
english--------> 67 (improved)
hmt-----------> 69 (deproved)
mathematic--> 76 (imporved)
a-math--------> 100 (improved) hahas.so proud of it.i diden copy le.hahas.didi i?i can't rmbr.
pure phy------> 61 (remain)
pure chem----> 51 (deproved) sigh
humanities---> 37 (fail) sigh.thank to my history.my history jus sux.prefer ss.which most dun.so i am a weirdo again.sigh.history.memorise n memorise.fainting.

teacher remarks. There is room for a more thorough revision (like deee..look at my result.) Queenie must work harder if she wants to be successful in the coming examination (is lik dee.. again.hu is lik dun nid work hard den can successful de.lol.)

dunno wad wrong with me.so easily agitated dis few day.shouted at junhao n wenbin today,realli irritatin.at sec sch le.still snatching thing here n dere lik a pri sch child.arghhhHH.making me look lik i am a lioness lik dat.oake.i am a lioness.oake.but i am trying to change dem.dey r far too irritating and childish for deir age lar.pls.sigh.

now i am goin to spend all my enegy on studyin le.no more games. no more anithing.i hope everything will be okae after o level.sigh.

if the world is left with one minute.i wish i can change the history of my life.

2006-02-27T05:45:00.000-08:00

i am gettting weirder and weirder this few days. i dunno what exxactly had happen.but what i noe is that my temper had gone from bad to worse.who on earth can tell me waht wrong with me.fainting sia.
yesterday i went for a hair cut.damn short nad damn ugly.so i was so angry that quarrel with my parent and i insist that i would not go to school.and i scolded bad words in my msn nick.walao.i was really damn angry yesterda.my hair is like damn short le lar.den my sis still say that the teacher will still wan me to cuut somemore de.so i think and think and think.haiyar.then my temper wen crazy.hahas.okae.i should end mii grumbling here.
another topic.wao.the tammy girl news is like going round the secondary schools and the polytechnic.doscussim how big de guy's c*** is.den how powerful he is to insert his that thingy inside for so long.and how beatiful is that ger.aiyar..alot of question mark and exclamation mark is goin on lor.omg.hahas.i ma wonderin how that girl is able to do that thingy and shot that thingy at the same time adn it changes direction.omg.hahas.shoulden make any more comments.

i really hope that my eyes is playing trick on me.

2006-02-20T05:45:00.000-08:00

suddenly there is no homework today.i felt so empty and loss.now homework had become part of my life.it seem weird without it.am i getting craxy.mayb!nowaday many ppl was about to breakdown due to too musch stress le.study and study.hahas.and somemore.decoratin and decorating.is lik siao lar.hahas.no choice mus show t we tak pride in our work mah.hor.hahas.

decided what i should do.

2006-02-18T05:20:00.000-08:00

congrat boys. can't believe you all have less than 3 training and you all are able to pitch up de shelter and flagpole.OMG. li hai wor.hahas.and dey de flagpole is done in 6 mins nia lar.OMG.doesn't that mean we have to done in 5 mins time.fainting.
today wen to ATF.diden do anithing.except for the tunnel thingy.agian it is de SCARE OF HEIGHT again.wtf lar.hahs.neber mind. help my squad mate took down foto to leave as memory.hahas.it is lik damn funny lar. looking at dem how dey cross diff element and how dey malu demselves.hahas.
we again.bery zilian.took lots of foto again.we r lik de only sch who tok foto lar.hahas. hu care!oh yar. TKGS is stil as noisy as before. even asrulz sir is like can you all be quiet for about TWO MINUTES.dey did quiet down. but for FIVE SECONDS.what a diff sia.hahas.
Raymond lie that he is 100kg n above and not able to do de flying fox.den de sir ask raymond whether he cried in the toilet this evening.(everybody is lik blur like why did he ask de question)den raymond said no and ask why. you know why.hahas.DUN TELL YOU.hehex.
CCHY nearly fought with BROADRIK.is like a misunderstanding lar. we are using chinese to praise dem. den de malay can't understand. so dey tot we are insulting them.den de BROADRICK guy stare at us and ssolded sume vulgarity.ELVIS using his (dun mean to diao but accidentally diao) eyes look at dem and said WHAT lar.after the ATF when we return to SINGAPORE. de guy ask another 3 non-npcc guy come down and wanted to start a fight. luckily deree is CIs dere lar.and nothing musch happen.
OH YAR> de ans for raymond de is. if e is too fat den he cannot c his bird.so will cry.lol rite.

2006-02-17T07:04:00.000-08:00

i am tired of everything. sigh.study.my life. my attitude.everything that is related to me.arghhHH.life is ful of changes.you will neber expect sumthing to happen.you will neber know when you gd friend will become your enemy cos of some minor thing. you will neber expect sumone that is so close to you. just disappear into thin air.
after readin jingyi blog. i suddenly realise that we duno whether a friend will be true to you until the last day of your life. when you are already dead. when you are holding a funeral. those true friends. they will give support or help to his/her best friend's family. helping them in the wake.shedding tears as they lost one of their true friends.this world is a world of reality.sighHh.

feel small in the reality world.

today. JIANHONG came back. so good. he became more man( at least in my opinion lar.hahas). and he is like so gd lar. have a ability to motivate us to do a better job for the campcraft. and teach the relevant thing and make us improve lar. compare to the other 2.who dun even giv a damn whether you do it correctly or not. SIGH. what a compare and contrast lar.if history ask me write cc qustion hor between them hor.i think i will pass with flying colour.hahas.
NOW WE ARE ABLE TO ERECT A FLAGPOLE IN 9 MINS 36S. so cool rite.hahas.
ohyar.boonsiong also cam back.diden noe until we are havin muster parade.hahas.he was like a dark.(cover his pimple sia.nicer.hahas.)he suddenly 'xing qing da fa' le gave us a glow in de dark stick.cool.hahas.and so kind sia.WAO
sudenly realise that the whole until can't live without the OLD SIRs.the MDMs is always constantly good. therefore.no problem.but is like the NEW SIR is making us faint.arghhhHH.when is the sirs coming back to svae the unit.lets pray hard.hahas.

i have never ever regreted.

2006-02-11T01:16:00.000-08:00

i tried to preoccupy my heart.
i know it is difficult.but i will work hard
heard that you feel happier than before
what more can i feel
other than blessing.
i have nothing more to say

this may be wad ben is thinking. and wad i am thinking.

i am drenching for your hug.
but my body is running away
the desire is burning.
do i love you or him.

is this a punishment from the god
can't make myself love you
can't make myself hate you
i am stuck in this dilemma.
trying hard to escape.

everytime when there is difficulties.
i will start running away from it

that wad i am in now.

in a dilemma

2006-02-10T05:05:00.000-08:00

hiehie..i get A1 for my o-level chinese..hippie..and dist for mii oral le..i am so delighted lar..hahas...yesterday nite i was so enxious lar..pls...5am in de morning den canp..b4 tat i was lik scratching mii head until siao..den alot of hair drop..omg..myy precious hair..haahs.but is ik finally lar..mii hard work diden gone down de drain.
aniway sorry to dose hu is in de class wif mi jus now. cos i scream realli loud..i know dat..paiseh hor..hahas...

alto i am happy but you r not dere wif mii

2006-02-08T05:53:00.000-08:00

i really hate being like this. everything in life is so out of place. you seem like yu are not mine. i seem like i am not yours. 1 mth only meet up once. i dunno where to place myself. in a deserted sandy beach or a beach that is fill with friends where i am still not myself. v. day is near, but i seem to be alone. you in there training hard, me here studying hard. i really have enough. let mak a fullstop here. oake??
school had been such a nuisance nowadays.the class is getting out of hand now.first they make our good temper mr goh angry. making the rest who is innocent to get scolded fot nothing.can't you are just get into order nad listen to instruction once. and then you will get an ealier dismissal.and today.you all make miss wong to raise her voice for her first time. shut your bloody mouth up and listen to instruction lar.idiotic.
omg.o-level result out in 1 more day..shivering.i can't believe it lar.i got a feeling i going get b or even c this time lar.shit lar.nowaday is all stupid thing coming out. i can't take it ani more..arghhHHHH...

so near yet so far.